WHEN LOVE HAPPENS

Do you ever meet someone and become immediately convinced that they could be the one??

Well, i bet you have at some point.  And then we gradually lose our sense of reasoning. Jump right straight at the moment. Build castles in the Blue Skies. Write Love stories in the broad horizon of our hearts. We eat, Breathe, think and relieve every moment spent. 

Then gradually, we come to a realization that we should have taken it slow. We begin to see those crooked lines that appeared so perfect. We look ahead and project the future, where our "immediate the one" doesn't even fit into our lives. We sometimes hate that we didn't think it all over, but we will remember the moments and sometime smile, while hating those friends who knew but said nothing.

Well, i met Dawson on a day that all my senses took a vacation. His brilliant smile left me in a trance and his Hello left me singing "HE TOUCHED ME".... Dee as i would come to call him was all shades of cute and i knew that my senses won't be back from its vacation for a long time. We talked a little and exchanged numbers and parted ways.

We talked daily henceforth, had random dates and everything about us seemed all perfect. I couldn't believe that i would come to have this whole package of awesomeness who always found a way to feed my expectations of him. He was gentle, He was Fun, He had and air of excellence around him. He was Open, fearless and great all round. I mused of how Loving our home will be if we remained happily ever after. I thought about how amazing our kids would be and what a great father he will turn out to be.

We both knew about our daily lives. We ran our days to do list by each other and always followed up to know progress. If this isn't Love then, i really don't know.

My Dee is the King of friends, Male and Female alike. He is Loved by all. Despite the bevy of ladies, he still had time for me. I had no cause to worry. He never gave me a reason to be uncomfortable as he will tease me about the guys who made passes at me.

Dee gave me the best time. The weekend get away's after he's been away for a while. Yes, he always made up for his absence. All who knew us always said "You both are perfect for each other", but those closer to Dee failed to tell me the truth that most of them knew.

Dee is getting married, and i am not his Bride.

What did i fail to see?? Where did i go wrong??

PS: This post isn't about me :D

WITHIN ME

Within my soul burns a passion for excellence.
Of progress and exciting moments.
Within my soul burns a desire to soar
Of achieved goals as dreams unfold.

Within my heart burns a desire for Love
To have, to hold and forever
Within my being, burns my passion for you
Of the ever after happiness pledged.

Within me longs for a new life
The bulge, the pain and the whole change
Within me are fears of the new change
The stories, different from the reality.

LET ME ENTERTAIN YOU

let me entertain you with my tears
that flow from self pity
the knowing that most things done, are wrong, yet the thought that it doesn't count.

let me entertain you with my fears
that nothing good comes from me,
that everything step i take meets yet another stumbling block.

let me entertain you with my pride
when wounded, makes me rage like wild fire
the lessons i learn sometimes laced with regret.

let me entertain you with my doubt
that no one is out there with any good intentions
but daily encounters have yet to prove me otherwise

let me entertain you with my weakness
the life of i can always do it later
the stolen drive, passion and will to accomplish 

let me entertain you with my strength
the milestones achieved yet unnoticed
the voice in my head that says, you just did it.

let me entertain you with my smile
that mask the pain within my soul
the hope that someday everything will be just fine

let me entertain you with my words
that consciousness to always speak right
the swallowed words voiced in my head

let me entertain you with my love
the crazy emotions that paints a perfect picture
that reality of it that can't be described

MUSINGS

I Love Musing. The beauty of the colourful images, painted in the mind of the one who thinks "OH, I'VE FOUND LOVE" in the most likely place. 

Reminiscing about every detail of the time spent in the past, down to the present. 

The gushing of the heart, that causes your soul to quiver. 

SO BEAUTIFUL were these thoughts in her mind. Even more Beautiful were the Words spoken in the heat of passion. 

THE HEART IS SO DECEITFUL. 

The perfect song for the late night Karaoke. "LAY ALL YOUR LOVE ON ME". That Flirty Smile and the Power packed show of affection,  displayed, at the expense of making others present feel that tinge of jealousy of how SWEET YOUR LOVE IS. 

THE HEART REMAINS DECEITFUL.

You don't know, the beauty of the future, ''ÓUR FUTURE" perfectly painted and sealed in the web of my emotions. 

THE HEART, THE SEAT OF DECEPTION.

DREAM LIFE

Handbag in hand, i leave home in the early morning 
Waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile 
I watch my bed with a surge of that well known sadness 
And I have to sit down for a while 
The feeling that I'm leaving her for 12 hrs

mschewwww...... mornings are not a tired girls friend abi??? I almost cry, leaving my bed behind every morning. (A Lazy girls thots)

So i amuse myself with thoughts of having to wake up each day only to stay in bed and order people around to do stuff for me and at the end of it all, those lovely text messages will keep hitting my phone

"Credit Alert!

Acc#:000**********

Amt: 500,000,000.00

Desc: Bouqet of Roses Int'l

Time: 09/04/14@2:50 PM

Avail Bal: 6,500,385,430.68

Total Bal: 6,505,385,430.68

Is that not Life? Ehn, Eezit not?

But you See

I work all night, I work all day, to pay the bills I have to pay 
Ain't it sad  (NO, if i don't, who i wan leave am for?)
And still there never seems to be a single penny left for me 
That's too bad
In my dreams I have a plan 
If I got me a wealthy man.............

Then that me above, amusing myself might just be my Life...... What do i care???

I wouldn't have to work at all, I'd fool around and Dance Skelewu

#BowsOut #Peace #Dreaming

REMOVING COBWEBS

This Relationship has become a VERY Distant one....

I AM SORRY..... I AM TRULY SORRY

MEETING MY SISTER

Today the 16th Day of Feb, 2013............ is/was a good day for me.

 

 

Last Christmas, i found out that my Younger Sister is here in Abuja, and lives with her aunt about 15/20 mins away from me, and from that moment of knowing, i made up my mind that i must go and see her once i got back.

 

 

Today all my antsy feeling about meeting my Half sister was put to rest.

 

 

I had wondered about so many things.

 

Does she look like us?

 

Will i/she recognise her/me the moment i/she see(s) her/me?

 

What will her/my reaction be like?

 

Will she be very tall? looooool.

 

 

After well over a Decade plus years, i Finally saw my Younger Sister today..........

 

A week Today was the first time i spoke with her on the phone, and i was super excited at the tone of her voice. She inquired about my children and i immediately knew she was mistaking me for my/our Oldest Sister. And i tried to explain myself and she goes, O, honestly, i can't remember you all, and all i did was laugh because same thing happened with her/our Brother, who couldn't tell us apart when he came visiting last christmas.

 She sounded all grown and feisty, and i just couldn't wait to see her.

 

 

Today, with the help of 2 members of my church choir, i set out to get the address she had given me. Luckily for me, one of the guys knew the road and area quite well.

 

 

We missed quite a few turns here and there and i had to keep calling her to be sure we were on course and she said she was going to be standing by a junction, and while we felt we had missed a turn again, we decided to stop and ask questions.

 

 

 We approached a girl by a gate near a junction and stopped to ask for direction, and just as i looked up, that knowing smile got me, and i knew immediately that she was the one.

 

 

That moment had come. I saw her, and i/she recognized her/me.

 

The Hug, Chatter and all............

We are Most definitely going to be spending some weekends together very soon...............

My weekend was made today. :D :D :D