Friday, September 4, 2015


let me entertain you with my tears
that flow from self pity
the knowing that most things done, are wrong, yet the thought that it doesn't count.

let me entertain you with my fears
that nothing good comes from me,
that everything step i take meets yet another stumbling block.

let me entertain you with my pride
when wounded, makes me rage like wild fire
the lessons i learn sometimes laced with regret.

let me entertain you with my doubt
that no one is out there with any good intentions
but daily encounters have yet to prove me otherwise

let me entertain you with my weakness
the life of i can always do it later
the stolen drive, passion and will to accomplish 

let me entertain you with my strength
the milestones achieved yet unnoticed
the voice in my head that says, you just did it.

let me entertain you with my smile
that mask the pain within my soul
the hope that someday everything will be just fine

let me entertain you with my words
that consciousness to always speak right
the swallowed words voiced in my head

let me entertain you with my love
the crazy emotions that paints a perfect picture
that reality of it that can't be described

Friday, June 5, 2015


I Love Musing. The beauty of the colourful images, painted in the mind of the one who thinks "OH, I'VE FOUND LOVE" in the most likely place. 
Reminiscing about every detail of the time spent in the past, down to the present. 
The gushing of the heart, that causes your soul to quiver. 
SO BEAUTIFUL were these thoughts in her mind. Even more Beautiful were the Words spoken in the heat of passion. 


The perfect song for the late night Karaoke. "LAY ALL YOUR LOVE ON ME". That Flirty Smile and the Power packed show of affection,  displayed, at the expense of making others present feel that tinge of jealousy of how SWEET YOUR LOVE IS. 


You don't know, the beauty of the future, ''ÓUR FUTURE" perfectly painted and sealed in the web of my emotions. 


Wednesday, April 9, 2014


Handbag in hand, i leave home in the early morning 
Waving goodbye with an absent-minded smile 
I watch my bed with a surge of that well known sadness 
And I have to sit down for a while 
The feeling that I'm leaving her for 12 hrs

mschewwww...... mornings are not a tired girls friend abi??? I almost cry, leaving my bed behind every morning. (A Lazy girls thots)

So i amuse myself with thoughts of having to wake up each day only to stay in bed and order people around to do stuff for me and at the end of it all, those lovely text messages will keep hitting my phone

"Credit Alert!
Amt: 500,000,000.00
Desc: Bouqet of Roses Int'l
Time: 09/04/14@2:50 PM
Avail Bal: 6,500,385,430.68
Total Bal: 6,505,385,430.68

Is that not Life? Ehn, Eezit not?

But you See

I work all night, I work all day, to pay the bills I have to pay 
Ain't it sad  (NO, if i don't, who i wan leave am for?)
And still there never seems to be a single penny left for me 
That's too bad
In my dreams I have a plan 
If I got me a wealthy man.............

Then that me above, amusing myself might just be my Life...... What do i care???

I wouldn't have to work at all, I'd fool around and Dance Skelewu

#BowsOut #Peace #Dreaming

Tuesday, April 1, 2014


This Relationship has become a VERY Distant one....


Saturday, February 16, 2013


Today the 16th Day of Feb, 2013............ is/was a good day for me.
Last Christmas, i found out that my Younger Sister is here in Abuja, and lives with her aunt about 15/20 mins away from me, and from that moment of knowing, i made up my mind that i must go and see her once i got back.
Today all my antsy feeling about meeting my Half sister was put to rest.
I had wondered about so many things.
Does she look like us?
Will i/she recognise her/me the moment i/she see(s) her/me?
What will her/my reaction be like?
Will she be very tall? looooool.
After well over a Decade plus years, i Finally saw my Younger Sister today..........
A week Today was the first time i spoke with her on the phone, and i was super excited at the tone of her voice. She inquired about my children and i immediately knew she was mistaking me for my/our Oldest Sister. And i tried to explain myself and she goes, O, honestly, i can't remember you all, and all i did was laugh because same thing happened with her/our Brother, who couldn't tell us apart when he came visiting last christmas.
 She sounded all grown and feisty, and i just couldn't wait to see her.
Today, with the help of 2 members of my church choir, i set out to get the address she had given me. Luckily for me, one of the guys knew the road and area quite well.
We missed quite a few turns here and there and i had to keep calling her to be sure we were on course and she said she was going to be standing by a junction, and while we felt we had missed a turn again, we decided to stop and ask questions.
 We approached a girl by a gate near a junction and stopped to ask for direction, and just as i looked up, that knowing smile got me, and i knew immediately that she was the one.
That moment had come. I saw her, and i/she recognized her/me.
The Hug, Chatter and all............

We are Most definitely going to be spending some weekends together very soon...............

My weekend was made today. :D :D :D

Tuesday, February 5, 2013


Our relationship started off great. You Loved me, and i Loved you. You were never too distant from me and it gave me great pleasure. But now i feel heartbroken, betrayed and worse still abandoned.
You come to me some days and struggle to give me a treat, but in the end you slam your PC shut and get busy with other stuff. Not exactly a delightful experience.
I really do miss our relationship back in the days.... Don't know what i've done to deserve this treatment. Please re-consider and Know that, I STILL LOVE YOU.

Dear Blog,
Thanks for reminding me that you still love me. I once was crazy about you, and Loved you. I still love you though but i must acknowledge the fact that alot has changed in our relationship because i cheated and still cheating on you with FB and TWITTER.
There are so many stuff i wanna share with you, but most times i am so Lazy to actually get around to it.
I will rather not make promises i won't keep, but lets hope that this year be better than Last year.

Your's Truly
Blog Owner

Friday, October 12, 2012


I cannot begin to say all he has done....... i will probably spend eternity still counting the blessings of God upon my life and family. Ever Faithful even in my Unfaithfulness.

I turned 26 this year with much more responsibilities than i can ever imagine, but God has been faithful.

I turned 26 the same day my sister had her traditional marriage. It was the awesomest day ever.... My God shut all ill speakers up, as we merried, laughed, danced and had and awesomely fantastic day. OCT 1ST 2012, will not be forgotten in a very long while.

I seem to have had some wrong turns @ 26. Reminds me of 23 & 24 but with a different mindset. 25 came too easy, like a flash.... but i like 26 cuz the lessons of life became more clearer.

LIVE, LOVE, FORGIVE...................
More than before, i've come to realize how truly beautiful i am. Not in a vain way, but because ive come to appreciate the WORK OF ART God made me Inside and Out.
I need not any man telling me "Wow, you are Beautiful".... NO. I walk with the consciousness that God specially made me beautiful and placed in me a compassionate heart, which is in itself more beautiful than my outward appearance.
@ 19+, i always had a daily confession..... i said to myself every chance i got "I AM BEAUTIFUL", but it took 26, to really help me understand that it wasnt about my outward appearance but what i carry on the inside.
@ 26, i'm letting myself get schooled on Patience and Tolerance, and so far..... its been a great lesson, especially with a Man who totally and is patiently helping me through this phase. He has been all kinds of AWESOME, even when i push him to the extreme. Taking his last Name...........*smiles*
Life had dished its Up's and Downs. i may have struggled, battled emotions, wept, cursed, blamed, taken it anyhow............
@ 26, the year of the Word of God, I UNDERSTOOD.