Sunday, March 25, 2012


Officially, i kiss being LIL MISS GOOD/NICE GIRL, away and turning on the no-nonsense Radar on full blast. Thats the much i can take and the height of it all. If after reading this post, u choose to judge me, well, good for you..... I am the kinda girl, who will go an extra mile to make sure i give the best of me (be it time or money) to someone just to put a smile on their faces. Most times, however inconveniencing it may be, i still do it while consoling myself that its not me who has put in that capacity in me but GOD. I met a girl in my church sometime last year, and my fist encounter with her wasn't so pleasant. She asked me for a certain amount of money and i told her i don't have the said amount but i will see how i can help. And there went my peace, as this girl called the battery life out of my cell as though i was owing her and that if i don't want to give her the money, i should just tell her.#seeattitude#. Finally when i met her in church again, i cautioned her about the calls and gave her at least 75% of the said sum and told her that was all i have. A week later, she started with calls again asking for the balance of the money.... like WTF???? 2012, with all the pressures that it has presented me with, both from work and with my finances being stretched, i have been working long extra hours to score extra bucks to keep body and soul together. Not complaining cuz the Grace of God has been sufficient. This same girl,came asking me if she could stay with me for a while (since late 2011)till she gets her own place.. So i inquired about where she was before, and she gave me the story of how she had problems with her sister where she was living and her sister asked her to move out et all. Why won't you have problems with your attitide??? So i asked her how she intends to get a place and pay for it when she has no job??? Abuja with the crazy cost of accomodation.... I explained to her and gave her reasons why she can't stay with me. 1. My younger sister lives with me 2.My house is like a transit INN for family members passing by. 3. She doesn't have a job and keeping her means carrying her cost. If you think this is not good enough reason, then I DUNNO...... With all these, she still wont stop with all the calls and messages, plaguing my cell and also running my battery dead. A few weeks ago, while i was in a workshop in Niger state, she started with the calls and i sent her a message, that i'm away AND IF THERE'S A PROBLEM SHE SHLD SEND ME A TEXT RATHER THAN THE CALLS. And she replied me saying "SHE KNOWS I'M IN ABUJA", thereby calling me a liar to my face. The height of it all was last night, by midnight when the same girl turns up at my door, banging and flashing torchlight, playing songs on her phone and throwing things at me in my own room, as i was struggling to sleep with the heat. The annoying thing about it all was, this girl was in church cuz of the outreach meeting we had and never said she was coming to my place. Secondly, we left church by 8:30pm, so between the hours of 8:30 - 12am, where was she? I don't know whether to call her Psychotic or Possessed, but trust me, her action earned a hot slap today... that was a total disrespect of privacy......

Friday, March 23, 2012


When the Thought to KILL comes to your mind, SUPPRESS it the Best way you can, or else you may just find out how so easy it is to do it.(Current State of Mind). 2012 with pressures for time as well as money........ Dealing with both as TIME = MONEY. I often times find myself lost in space, consumed by my own thoughts and last night, a more dangerous thought to KILL.. . . . . . . Anger, Boiling Hot......Thanks to Distance. Dear Lord, I'm sorry for i know i have sinned.Teach me to contain my anger which is just one Alphabet away fom DANGER. #angermanagement# Locked my boss out of the office yesterday, and prayed to God to step down his anger before i meet him, and he answered me...... a typical BAD day gone GOOD As difficult as it has been for me to make this commitment thing, i still find myself enraged by some actions and hence transfered agressions and the ultimate question of "WHY GET MARRIED ANYWAYS"? but then again, i shouldn't let people's experiences be the judge of something i haven't even ventured into. #makeyour'swork# An ex boyfriend's been calling and making sweet nothing talks about what was etc, as much as i have tried to be nice and not rude about it all, something tells me that he's up to no good. #i'msureheneedsaloan#, i'll probably use u for rituals cuz i need money too. When your Fart sends u running, something's not just right.... :D......#timeforsomeorangesandlotsofwater# What do u do on weekends??? if not for my church activities, i would love to spend the time in my office.. The weekend tip always does good. #pocketmoney# MEN love SKIRTS, as much as that still stands, SKIRTS now CHASE MEN. Imagine a lil 19 year old Rat pointing to her VG saying, i have what it takes.... #decencyoutathewindow21stCentury# RIP is such a sad phrase........ it feels like salt on an open wound.... #Godknowswhy# Happy Weekend y'all.