FOR THE MUSE

I JUST COULDN’T HELP THE THOUGHTS TODAY.
THE MUSE I LOVED AND CHERISH EACH DAY.
HE BROUGHT ME SMILES ON THIS FACE I FROWNED.
I’M STILL ALL SMILES, WITH EACH NEW LINE.
THE TIMES WE HAD, WAS NOT ALL BAD.
THE BAD WE FOUGHT, I LEARNT A LOT.
THE LOT I LEARNED HELPED SHAPE MY MIND.
BUT TRUTH BE TOLD, YOU CUT ME COLD.
I FOUGHT TO BE, AND NOW I’M GROWN.
I FEAR NO MORE, MY TEARS ALL GONE.
I BEAM WITH SMILES, AND I KNOW U WAS RIGHT.
YOU HAD TO LEAVE, AND NO MORE LIES.


With just a few days before i move, i decided to check in with my cardiologist cuz i've been having some palpitations. here's our conversation:

DOC: HOW HAVE U BEEN?
ME: GOOD, XCEPT FOR SOME SKIPPING HEARTBEAT.
D: OK.ARE U TENSED WHEN IT HAPPENS?
M: I DUNNO. JUST FEEL LIGHTHEADED.
D:ARE YOU WORRIED ABOUT ANYTHING?
M:NOPE.(DATS A LIE).
D: ARE U ON UR PERIOD?
M: NOPE
D: WHEN IS IT DUE?
M:SOME DAYS AGO.
D: wit a raised eye brow///// WHEN LAST DID YOU HAVE SEX?
M: ???????????????????
D: D'U HAVE A BOYFRIEND?
M:?????????????????????????
D: TAKE OFF UR SHIRT AND BRA SO I CAN LISTEN TO UR CHEST.
AT THIS POINT, MY PALPITATIONS CAME BACK. IT ALWAYS HAPPENS WEN I HAVE TO SHOW MY BOOBIES.

NEWAYS AFTER THE CHECK, I WAS SENT FOR AN ECG.and it came back clear.
D:WHAT ARE YOU MOST SCARED OF?
M: BEING ALONE.
So he tried to psyche me, and yeah he did a mighty good job.

D: YOU ARE JUST A LIVING ANXIETY BOX.
M: LIKE I DIN'T KNOW.

HE TALKED ABOUT THE DANGERS OF MY EVER ANXIOUS STATE, AND MY NEED TO RELAX MY MIND. AND AS FOR MY FEAR, I HAVE TO DEAL WITH IT ESPECIALLY NOW THAT I'M GOING AWAY.
M: OK.

D: SORRY, BUT PERMIT ME TO ASK!!!! Y DON'T YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND?
M: TAKING A BREAK FROM THERE.
D: THAT CAN HELP, U KNOW?
M: OK. THANK YOU SIR, AND I TAKE MY LEAVE.

DO YOU KNOW THAT ANXIETY CAN HOLD BACK YOUR PERIOD i.e IF U ARE SURE U ARE NOT PREGGY???? I LEARNT A LOT FROM THAT SESSION.

IF I HAD THOT SHOWING MY BOOBIES WAS SUCH A BIG DEAL, HERE COMES THE GYNAECOLOGIST( BEAUTIFUL NIGHTMARE).

THE LIFE OF MALE DOCTORS.