SAVE ME SOON.

WHAT HAVE I BECOME?????
ALLERGIC TO LOVE???
DEAD TO ALL EMOTIONS????
A COLD UNFEELING BIATCH AS I'VE BEEN PRESENTLY TAGGED.........

GOD, I WASN'T THIS WAY. I'VE NEVER BEEN AND WILL NEVER BE....... BUT WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME NOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW??????????????????
THANKS TO U *M*, I'VE BEEN TAGGED AS THIS *CUB*...... MHHHHHHHH , I KINDA FANCY THE NAME DOH,,,,, MAKES ME FEEL ALL IN CHARGE. YES, I'VE ALWAYS BEEN AND FROM HENCEFORTH, CONTINUE TO BE, CUZ I AM A BITCH.

RECENTLY, I'VE MET SOME REAL COOL GUYS, WHO COULD HAVE MADE A BOBO, BUT SUMWHERE ALONG THE LINE, I JUST FIND A REASON TO TELL THEM OFF. IT EVEN GETS WORSE THAT TODAY, WHILE I WENT TO SEE AHMED..............
YEA, AHMED THAT I EVEN LIKE A LOT.MSCHEWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW
HERE IS AHMED, WHO JUST GOT BACK AND WE SEAT TO GIST AS NORMAL. HE GETS ON ONE KNEE, WITH A RING IN HAND.MHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. NOT JUST ANY RING OH.......... A RING HIS MOTHER GAVE HIM SINCE LONG AGO......... ASKING ME TO BE OFFICIAL WITH US.

I JUST SAT THERE LAUGHING OUT LOUD *EVIL LAFTER*....... LIKE HE GOT A MASK ON HIS FACE. AND EVER SO SWEETLY, I SAID A BIG *NO* WITH A PECK ON HIS CHEEK.
OWWWWWWWW, POOR BOY, U NEEDED TO SEE THE LOOK ON HIS CANDID FACE.
TEARS WELLED UP HIS EYES, NOSE TWITCHED AS HE FOUGHT BACK TEARS, AND HIS MOUTH OPENED AND CLOSED AS HE TRIED TO FIND THE WORDS TO SPEAK. POOR BOY.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??????
WHEN DID I BECOME THIS MONSTER????????
WHERE HAVE ALL MY FEELINGS GONE???????
WHO CAN SAVE ME NOW??????????

FOR AHMED

WHEN WORDS SEEM TO FAIL YOU.
AND FATE SEEMS TO TRICK YOU.
WHEN ALL SEEMS TO GO WRONG.
LOOK UP AND SEE LOVE.


WHEN LIFE SEEMS SO SHORT.
AND GRACE SEEMS ALL LOST.
WHEN THE SUN GOES DOWN SOUTH.
GOD'S LOVE WILL LIGHT YOU UP.


OF HIS WILL YOU WERE BORN.
BY HIS GRACE YOU ARE SAVED.
BY HIS STRIPES, U WERE HEALED.
THUS SAITH THE LORD, YOU WILL LIVE.


AND JUST LIKE YESTERDAY.
THE MEMORIES WILL FADE AWAY.
THE TIDE IS HIGH TODAY.
BUT U'LL MOVE ON AS ALWAYS.

SPOKE WITH AHMED TODAY, AND HE'S DOING JUST FINE. HE'S STILL UNDERGOING SOME TEST NOW, NOT SO SURE ABOUT RE-SURGERY.

I KNOW AHMED LIKES ME A LOT. I DO LIKE HIM TOO. AND WE BOTH LIKE OURSELVES BUT WE CAN'T BE TOGETHER, WHY?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

IS IT BECAUSE HE'S A MUSLIM?????????? OR BECAUSE I KNOW HE'S SUPPOSED TO BE MARRIED TO HIS COUSIN????????????????(HE CALLED THAT OFF BECAUSE OF ME, SOME MONTHS AGO)HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. MIXED EMOTIONIONAL COMBAT................

GOD JUST KEEP HIM SAFE, I PRAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.