BAD DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 days ago, was just one of those days you feel like everything was working against you.

First, it was the stomach cramps, then the stress of going to Gwags (Uni Abuja) to submit my forms, and then having to go to the banks to find out that your account statement is seriously not in your favour, and the exchange rate had dropped to 158 naira per Dollar as against 164 two days before, and then going home to realize that the carpenter have left your work undone. Mschewwwwwwwwwwwww.


WHAT’S A GIRL TO DO????


So i went to church with a heart so full of worries, even though i knew i was so late. As i entered the church, the first words i heard were “HAPPINESS IS A CHOICE”........ And there i was still thinking when the pastor said, “I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY”........... i was to weak to even smile, so i said the words rather unconvincingly.


Got back home, with no sleep in sight, turned on the computer and as though i hadn’t had enough for the day, my MTN broadband also decided not to connect. WHAT A LONG NIGHT!!!!!

Thursday morning, with a heavy heart still, i managed to make it to work only for the 104 page document i had so tirelessly worked on and should print now cuz the boss needed it, decided to act up. My flash drive got corrupt and i just bowed my head in more sorrow. Managed to copy the document from the flash to my laptop and then sent it to the printer and it wouldn’t print. WTH??? The boss breathing down my neck, i managed to remain calm. So i copied the file into another flash drive and then on another system and sent to print.

As though i have not had enough already, halfway into the printing, the ink finished.......... BAD DAY HUH????????????

And so i log unto FB, to see if i can find anything to make me laff, but none. so i clicked on one of those applications "ON THIS DAY, GOD WANTS U TO KNOW", and was told that, "they believe God wants me to know that, ............ cnt remember it all, but has to do with Playing in the name of LOVE and being Impoverished". WTH??? Me playing in the name of LOVE??????? WAS THAT A JOKE OF SOME SORT?? I Signed out as quickly as i could. RUBBISH.

I SPENT THE REST OF THE DAY SLEEPING ON DUTY, and had a dream that brought hope alive again.


THE DREAM........................................

It was a gathering, more like in church, and i was meant to sing, but as much as i tried, i kept loosing my voice. The more i tried, the more frustrated i got. So i gave up. Yes, i gave up and decided to just get away cuz everything was still working against me................... when a voice said to me.............
“DON’T GIVE UP, AND DON’T GIVE IN. LOOK AROUND YOU, YOU SHOULD BE THANKFUL........... ..........” and just as i was about to still walk away, i heard the song............ “HERE’S MY SHOULDER YOU CAN LEAN ON ME”. And just then i started to cry, and i WOKE UP.


Sometimes, we get blinded by our emotions and drown in sadness, even though what we should do is LOOK UNTO GOD, and maintain a positive confession.

Y'ALL HAVE A BEAUTIFUL WEEKEND. Kisses

SISTER(S)............................................

I PROMISED TO WRITE ABOUT MY SADNESS, EVEN THOUGH I FEEL BETTER NOW, BUT I MUST KEEP THAT PROMISE.

FFF SAID SHE AND HER SISTER ALWAYS FOUGHT BUT TODAY, THEY GET ALONG. I'M THE OPPOSITE. MY ELDEST SISTER WILL ALWAYS BEAT ME AS A KID FOR REASONS SHE THOT WAS RIGHT. THIS WHOLE I BE UR SENIOR THING IS JUST SO ANNOYING. FRICTION ALWAYS, THUS WE CAN'T GET ALONG.I DOUBT IT.
OF MY THREE SISTER'S, NONE HAS A GOOD DEFINITION OF ME.

MY YOUNGER SISTER, THINKS I'M WEIRD CUZ I DON'T DO THE USUAL STUFF DEY ALL DO.

MY IMMEDIATE ELDER SISTER CALLS ME ANNOYING, CUZ SHE FORGOT MY MUM"S BIRTH DATE AND I FORGOT TO CALL HER TO REMIND HER. REASON BEING THAT, I SO MUCH HAD IT IN MIND TO CALL MUMSIE ON THAT DAY, BUT I WOKE UP WITH A MIND BLOWING TOOTHACHE AND MENSTRUAL CRAMP.BESIDES THE BIRTHDAY THINGY,DATS HOW SHE VIEWS ME.

MY ELDEST SISTER, THINKS I'M TOO DUMB TO FUNCTION AS AN INDIVIDUAL. LIKE SHE'S THE PERFECT ONE AND YOU JUST HAVE TO ADOPT HER WAYS. AND THATS WHERE WE ALWAYS HAVE PROBLEMS. NOT THAT I TALK BACK AT HER BUT CUZ I'M MUTE WHEN SHE STARTS HER NAGGING AND U KNOW WOT THEY SAY ABOUT SILENCE.

SO ALTOGETHER, NOTHING I DO EVER GOES DOWN WELL WITH HER.

SIS: PLS MAKE QUAKER OAT FOR THE KIDS.
OK, I GO TO THE KITCHEN AND DO DAT, I MEAN WHO CAN'T MAKE OATS XCEPT ME?????
SIS: THIS IS TOO HARD FOR THE KIDS. THATS NOT THE WAY I MAKE IT.
ME: SILENCE ALL THE WAY.

I GO OUT WITH ARROGANCE OR ANYONE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX, SHE XPECTS ME TO COME BACK WITH A HAMPER. MHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I GET A CALL FROM GUY, SHE HAS SOMETHING NOT NICE TO SAY ABT IT. THE ONE THAT PISSED ME OFF ONE DAY WAS WHEN I GOT A CALL FROM THIS GUY I USED TO KNOW WHO ASKED ME TO HELP CHECK ON A HOUSE HE WAS BUILDING AND I WAS JUST TELLING HIM WHAT I SAW AND HE WENT ON TO TELL ME ABT ANODA HOUSE IN LAGOS TOO. AND I ASKED IF I COULD GET A ROOM IN THE HOUSE. AND HE SAID I HAVE TO AGREE TO HIS PROPOSAL AND AS USUAL I JOKED ABOUT IT AND THE NEXT THING I HEARD WAS, "LEAVE THESE GUYS WITH THEIR HIV". WHAT WAS THAT???? IF IT BE A JOKE, IT WASN'T ONE BIT FUNNY.

ON THE DAY OF THAT POST,I HAD WOKEN UP AS USUAL AND GETTING THE KIDS READY FOR SCHOOL IN XCRUTIATING PAIN.( THAT WAS BEFORE THE TOOTH XTRACTION)AND I WAS REALLY NOT IN THE MOOD FOR TALKS. SHE WALKS INTO THE KITCHEN AND BEGAN HER USUAL "WHAT R U DOIN"????? I WAS NOT IN THE MOOD FOR HER..... U'RE NOT FUNCTIONAL TALKS AND I JUST GAVE WAY AND ASKED HER TO JUST DO WATEVER IT WAS THAT HAS TO BE DONE.

SIS: I DON'T BLAME YOU. IT'S ALL BECUZ U R STAYING IN MY HOUSE.

AT THIS POINT, MY HEART BROKE. I WANTED TO CRY, BUT I COULDN'T. WOTS ALL THAT??????? NA WA OOOOOOO. I JUST TOOK A SHOWER, AND LEFT THE HOUSE........ AND GUESS WHO THE DEVIL BROUGHT BY..................................

"ARROGANCE". YEAH HIM............. AND I JUST LET HIM WHISK ME AWAY........ HE WOULD'T UTTER A WORD TO ME AND I JUST SAT IN THE CAR DUMB TILL A CALL FROM MY GOD SISTER WHOM I TALKED TO ABOUT ALL THE ISSUES WITH MY SISTER, AND AS USUAL.................. I CRIEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD MY HEART OUT.
ARROGANCE LET ME CRY WITHOUT A WORD. AND AFTER ALL THE TEARS WERE GONE, AND I HAD SLEPT FOR SOMETIME, HE BEGAN TO SING TO ME ABT NOT GIVING IN TO THE SADNESS THAT CLOUDED MY MIND. HE TOOK ME TO PRESIDENTIAL VILLA, KNOWING I LOVE SUCH AN ENVIRONMENT... THOUGH HE WENT TO SEE OUR ACTING PRESIDENTS WIFE.

OK, I DIDN'T SAY IT......... ARROGANCE IS INTO POLITICS O. I JUST LED MYSELF THRU THE BEAUTIFUL VILLA ON A LONG WALK AND OFF WE WENT HOME AND DOT DOT DOT..............................(DON'T ASK).

ARROGANCE HAS BEEN SO NICE AND ANNOYINGLY SWEET, BUT TODAY WAS BAD. HAVEN'T SEEN HIM ALL WEEK AND TODAY HE CAME TO SEE ME BUT I DIN'T CUZ MY SISTER SPENT MY WHOLE DAY IN THE MARKET. HE EVEN OFFERED TO COME AND PICK US UP WHEN WE WERE DONE BUT MY UNCLE CAME FIRST SO I TOLD HIM NOT TO BORDER. NOW, HE AINT TALKING TO ME AND I'M WORRIED.
WHY????? TRUTH IS HE'LL STILL BE HERE 2MORO SO WTF?????????????

U ALL HAVE A FAB WEEKEND AND I PROMISE NEVER TO BE SAD ANYMORE.......

WHEN SORROW MET PAIN

DARK SORROWS, WHITE PAIN.
ALL BLUE, MY DEPRESSED SOUL...
GREEN MOMENTS, YELLOW FACES.
NEVER NOTICED... CUZ SORROW MET PAIN.

ANGUISH AND TURMOIL.
RAGE AND DESTRUCTION.
SADNESS CLOUDS THE MOMENTS.
CUZ SORROW MET PAIN.

WE BATTLE TO SUPRESS ANGER.
YET, WITH EACH NEW DAY.. MORE DANGER.
NOTHING COMES EASY, EVERYTHING'S SAD.
CUZ SORROW SURE MET PAIN.

WE SULK AND TANTRUMS RISE.
WE FAULT EVEN THE TINIEST THOTS OF WOT WE THOT WAS HOPE...
WE VENT AND OUR HEADS BANG IN VAIN.
ALL BECAUSE SORROW MET PAIN.

THER'S A REASON THIS SADNESS CAME UP AND ITS CALLED *MY SISTER*... SOMETIMES I WONDER, ARE U REALLY MY SISTER???? WILL TELL THE STORY LATER.

XOXO.