CHALLENGES IN 2011

IT’S BEEN ALL TOUGH BUT I’M STANDING STRONG. I’VE BEEN HURT, BATTERD BY EMOTIONS, ENDLESS CRYING FOR DAYS, SICK, AND COMPLETELY DRAINED.

I LIVE AND WORK IN ABUJA. I DON’T HAVE A HOUSE, THUS I LIVED WITH MY SISTER.

IF U’VE BEEN FOLLOWING AND READING MY POSTS, U WILL SEE SOME WHERE I BICKERED ABOUT THE ISSUES BETWEEN MY SISTER AND I. BUT NOW I’M SO VERY SURE THAT I DO NOT KNOW OR WANT TO KNOW ANYTHING ABOUT HER FOR A VERY LONG TIME AND I MEAN SO.

I CAME BACK TO ABUJA AFTER THE XMAS BRK ON THE 5TH TO RESUME WORK ON THE 6TH. EVERYTHING WAS FINE WITH ME. I HAD ASKED MY SISTER WHEN THEY’LL BE BACK AND SHE SAID “NOT SURE YET”.

SOME DAYS LATER, WHILE AT WORK, I GOT A TEXT FROM HER HUSBAND SAYING I SHOULD HAND OVER THE KEYS OF THE HOUSE TO THEIR AGENT. AS CONFUSED AS I AM AT THE MOMENT, THAT WAS HOW I WAS ON THAT DAY WHEN I TURNED IN THE KEY AND I EVEN CALLED THE INLAW TO GET MORE INFO ON WHAT WAS UP AND HE REPILED;

ME: HELLO

HIM: GIVE THE KEY TO KINGSLEY

*CLICK* THE CALL ENDS. WHAT RUDENESS I THOT?

THIS NOW JUGGLED MY MEMORY, AS I REMEMBERED B4 THEN, WHEN MY SISTER CALLED TO SAY A FRIEND OF HER’S WAS COMING TO SEE THE HOUSE. SO I THOT TO MYSELF;;; *OH, SHE KNEW ALL ALONG AND JUST KEPT MUTE*

I CONTINUED TO STAY, HOPING THE INLAW WOULD COME SOON AS I WAS TOLD TO PICK UP THEIR PROPERTIES IN THE HOUSE. DAYS TURNED TO WEEK (+DAYS) HE NEVER SHOWED UP.
ONE DAY, WHILE AT WORK, SHE CALLED ME TO SAY;

SHE: HOW U HOLDING UP?

ME: FINE

SHE: HOW U GONNA DO ABT ACCOMODATION? BUT U KNOW, I KNOW U CAN SORT URSELF OUT. U ALWAYS HAVE A WAY OF DOING SO, BLA BLA BLAA BLA BLA BLA .

* WONDERING WHERE ALL THAT CAME FROM*

AS I GOT BACK 4RM WORK, I DISCOVERED THAT SOMEONE ELSE HAD MOVED IN. I PCKED UP MY PERSONAL STUFF AND MOVED OUT WITH NO WHERE IN MIND. ONLY THEN DID I REALIZE, THAT SHE ALSO KNEW THAT THE NEW OCCUPANT HAD MOVED IN AND STILL “DID NOT TELL ME”.

A FRIEND OF HERS (MY SIS), AND HER HUSBAND PUT ME UP, TILL I SORT MY SELF OUT. THEN ON MONDAY, SHE CALLED SAYING;

“U HAVE TO GET BACK TO OUR HOUSE AND WAIT TILL MY HUSBAND OR I COME TO GET OUR STUFF AND BESIDES WHO ASKED U TO EVEN GO STAY WITH THOSE PPLE?”

I THOT TO MYSELF, FIRST, U WERE MOVING, U NEVER TOLD ME. U DECIDED TO RENT OUT THE HOUSE, U NEVER TOLD ME, NEITHER DID U THINK I WAS IMPT ENOUGH TO EVER CARE A HOOT ABOUT.

SO SHE GOES OFF, CALLING ME NAMES UPON NAMES, AND HAD EVEN TOLD MY MUM AND GRANDMUM SOME HEART WRENCHING STUFF ABT HER FRIEND THAT HAD OFFERED ME A ROOF OVER MY HEAD.

I WAS SO MAD, AND EVEN WHEN MY MUM AND GRANDMUM HAD CALLED SAYING THAT I SHOULD GO BACK TO THEIR HOUSE AND WAIT TILL HER HUSBAND GETS THERE, I GAVE THEM MY SIPMLE RESPONSE OF “NO, INFACT NEVER EVER”.
WHAT U GUYS DO NOT KNOW IS HOW HARD IT’S BEEN, LIVING WITH THESE PEOPLE.

NOW, I'VE FOUND SOME PEACE FROM WITHIN ME, I'VE RECONCILED WITH THE FACT THAT IN THIS LIFE, *U ARE ACCOUNTABLE FOR URSELF. THINK FIRST FOR URSELF B4 BRINGING ANYOTHER INTO THE PICTURE EVEN IF THEY ARE FAMILY*
LESSON WELL LEARNT.

SISTER(S)............................................

I PROMISED TO WRITE ABOUT MY SADNESS, EVEN THOUGH I FEEL BETTER NOW, BUT I MUST KEEP THAT PROMISE.

FFF SAID SHE AND HER SISTER ALWAYS FOUGHT BUT TODAY, THEY GET ALONG. I'M THE OPPOSITE. MY ELDEST SISTER WILL ALWAYS BEAT ME AS A KID FOR REASONS SHE THOT WAS RIGHT. THIS WHOLE I BE UR SENIOR THING IS JUST SO ANNOYING. FRICTION ALWAYS, THUS WE CAN'T GET ALONG.I DOUBT IT.
OF MY THREE SISTER'S, NONE HAS A GOOD DEFINITION OF ME.

MY YOUNGER SISTER, THINKS I'M WEIRD CUZ I DON'T DO THE USUAL STUFF DEY ALL DO.

MY IMMEDIATE ELDER SISTER CALLS ME ANNOYING, CUZ SHE FORGOT MY MUM"S BIRTH DATE AND I FORGOT TO CALL HER TO REMIND HER. REASON BEING THAT, I SO MUCH HAD IT IN MIND TO CALL MUMSIE ON THAT DAY, BUT I WOKE UP WITH A MIND BLOWING TOOTHACHE AND MENSTRUAL CRAMP.BESIDES THE BIRTHDAY THINGY,DATS HOW SHE VIEWS ME.

MY ELDEST SISTER, THINKS I'M TOO DUMB TO FUNCTION AS AN INDIVIDUAL. LIKE SHE'S THE PERFECT ONE AND YOU JUST HAVE TO ADOPT HER WAYS. AND THATS WHERE WE ALWAYS HAVE PROBLEMS. NOT THAT I TALK BACK AT HER BUT CUZ I'M MUTE WHEN SHE STARTS HER NAGGING AND U KNOW WOT THEY SAY ABOUT SILENCE.

SO ALTOGETHER, NOTHING I DO EVER GOES DOWN WELL WITH HER.

SIS: PLS MAKE QUAKER OAT FOR THE KIDS.
OK, I GO TO THE KITCHEN AND DO DAT, I MEAN WHO CAN'T MAKE OATS XCEPT ME?????
SIS: THIS IS TOO HARD FOR THE KIDS. THATS NOT THE WAY I MAKE IT.
ME: SILENCE ALL THE WAY.

I GO OUT WITH ARROGANCE OR ANYONE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX, SHE XPECTS ME TO COME BACK WITH A HAMPER. MHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I GET A CALL FROM GUY, SHE HAS SOMETHING NOT NICE TO SAY ABT IT. THE ONE THAT PISSED ME OFF ONE DAY WAS WHEN I GOT A CALL FROM THIS GUY I USED TO KNOW WHO ASKED ME TO HELP CHECK ON A HOUSE HE WAS BUILDING AND I WAS JUST TELLING HIM WHAT I SAW AND HE WENT ON TO TELL ME ABT ANODA HOUSE IN LAGOS TOO. AND I ASKED IF I COULD GET A ROOM IN THE HOUSE. AND HE SAID I HAVE TO AGREE TO HIS PROPOSAL AND AS USUAL I JOKED ABOUT IT AND THE NEXT THING I HEARD WAS, "LEAVE THESE GUYS WITH THEIR HIV". WHAT WAS THAT???? IF IT BE A JOKE, IT WASN'T ONE BIT FUNNY.

ON THE DAY OF THAT POST,I HAD WOKEN UP AS USUAL AND GETTING THE KIDS READY FOR SCHOOL IN XCRUTIATING PAIN.( THAT WAS BEFORE THE TOOTH XTRACTION)AND I WAS REALLY NOT IN THE MOOD FOR TALKS. SHE WALKS INTO THE KITCHEN AND BEGAN HER USUAL "WHAT R U DOIN"????? I WAS NOT IN THE MOOD FOR HER..... U'RE NOT FUNCTIONAL TALKS AND I JUST GAVE WAY AND ASKED HER TO JUST DO WATEVER IT WAS THAT HAS TO BE DONE.

SIS: I DON'T BLAME YOU. IT'S ALL BECUZ U R STAYING IN MY HOUSE.

AT THIS POINT, MY HEART BROKE. I WANTED TO CRY, BUT I COULDN'T. WOTS ALL THAT??????? NA WA OOOOOOO. I JUST TOOK A SHOWER, AND LEFT THE HOUSE........ AND GUESS WHO THE DEVIL BROUGHT BY..................................

"ARROGANCE". YEAH HIM............. AND I JUST LET HIM WHISK ME AWAY........ HE WOULD'T UTTER A WORD TO ME AND I JUST SAT IN THE CAR DUMB TILL A CALL FROM MY GOD SISTER WHOM I TALKED TO ABOUT ALL THE ISSUES WITH MY SISTER, AND AS USUAL.................. I CRIEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD MY HEART OUT.
ARROGANCE LET ME CRY WITHOUT A WORD. AND AFTER ALL THE TEARS WERE GONE, AND I HAD SLEPT FOR SOMETIME, HE BEGAN TO SING TO ME ABT NOT GIVING IN TO THE SADNESS THAT CLOUDED MY MIND. HE TOOK ME TO PRESIDENTIAL VILLA, KNOWING I LOVE SUCH AN ENVIRONMENT... THOUGH HE WENT TO SEE OUR ACTING PRESIDENTS WIFE.

OK, I DIDN'T SAY IT......... ARROGANCE IS INTO POLITICS O. I JUST LED MYSELF THRU THE BEAUTIFUL VILLA ON A LONG WALK AND OFF WE WENT HOME AND DOT DOT DOT..............................(DON'T ASK).

ARROGANCE HAS BEEN SO NICE AND ANNOYINGLY SWEET, BUT TODAY WAS BAD. HAVEN'T SEEN HIM ALL WEEK AND TODAY HE CAME TO SEE ME BUT I DIN'T CUZ MY SISTER SPENT MY WHOLE DAY IN THE MARKET. HE EVEN OFFERED TO COME AND PICK US UP WHEN WE WERE DONE BUT MY UNCLE CAME FIRST SO I TOLD HIM NOT TO BORDER. NOW, HE AINT TALKING TO ME AND I'M WORRIED.
WHY????? TRUTH IS HE'LL STILL BE HERE 2MORO SO WTF?????????????

U ALL HAVE A FAB WEEKEND AND I PROMISE NEVER TO BE SAD ANYMORE.......

WHEN SORROW MET PAIN

DARK SORROWS, WHITE PAIN.
ALL BLUE, MY DEPRESSED SOUL...
GREEN MOMENTS, YELLOW FACES.
NEVER NOTICED... CUZ SORROW MET PAIN.

ANGUISH AND TURMOIL.
RAGE AND DESTRUCTION.
SADNESS CLOUDS THE MOMENTS.
CUZ SORROW MET PAIN.

WE BATTLE TO SUPRESS ANGER.
YET, WITH EACH NEW DAY.. MORE DANGER.
NOTHING COMES EASY, EVERYTHING'S SAD.
CUZ SORROW SURE MET PAIN.

WE SULK AND TANTRUMS RISE.
WE FAULT EVEN THE TINIEST THOTS OF WOT WE THOT WAS HOPE...
WE VENT AND OUR HEADS BANG IN VAIN.
ALL BECAUSE SORROW MET PAIN.

THER'S A REASON THIS SADNESS CAME UP AND ITS CALLED *MY SISTER*... SOMETIMES I WONDER, ARE U REALLY MY SISTER???? WILL TELL THE STORY LATER.

XOXO.