PANTLESS

DO U KNOW HOW MANY GURLS/LADIES THAT WALK THE STREETS PANTLESS?????
HAVE U EVEN DONE IT BEFORE???
DON'T BE SHY O, CUZ TODAY, THAT WAS ME.

WHY????????????

I'M THE KINDA GURL WHO WILL RATHER KEEP THEM TILL I FIND THAT PERFECT SATURDAY, WHEN THE SUN IS SO HOT BEFORE I WASH THEM PANTIES.
AFETR THE WASHING AND SUN-DRYING, I IRON THEM AND PUT THEM ON THEIR RESPECTIVE HANGERS.LOL.
OVER THE WEEKS NOW, I'VE BEEN TOO LAZY TO DO THAT(WASH), AND THIS MORNING, I HAD NONE LEFT TO WEAR. WHAT'S A GURL TO DO ON THIS MONDAY MORNING THAN TO GO PANTLESS.
WILL DEFINITLY PICK UP NEW ONES ON MY WAY HOME FOR THE WEEK. LOL

thanks to all FOR the b.day wishes. i APPRECIATE a lot.
B.DAY GIST.
Spent the whole day in church, went to transcorp hilton for a drink with some fwends and went home to sleep.

SATURDAY:
My boss, decides that the b.day continues.
Ice cream with his niece, 2 OF HIS fwends, and some gurl. A hearty meal at some lovely restaurant, a walk in a park, and ONE ON THE ROAD (BOOZE).LOL. i don't booze doh.

SUNDAY:
Church. enough laying of hands.

AND IT JUST CONTINUES.............................
it's feels good to be in october o.

Today, i play host to 20 able men and women. I SURE DID NOT LET MY MOTHER DOWN. I GAVE THEM *FINGER LICKING REAL GOOD* FROM BREAKFAST TO LUNCH, WITH A PROUD BOSS, SMILING AT MY MULTITASKING.

KA BOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMM

OOOOOOOOOOO YAY, I WISH ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
OOOOOOOOOOO YAYYYYYYYYYYY, AND MANY MANY HAPPY RETURNS.

REALLY WHAT MORE CAN I SAY, IF NOT "THANK YOU FATHER LORD ALMIGHTY FOR ONE MORE YEAR".
TOMORROW MAKES ME PLUS ONE. 1ST OCTOBERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
YOUR TEXT MSGS ARE WELCOME ON 08039402475.

MY HEART REJOICES, AND MY HEART WEEPS.


I WEEP NOT OF JOY, BUT PAIN IN MY HEART THAT AMIDST ALL THESE CELEBRATION, SOME INNOCENT KIDS ARE LOST SOMEWHERE IN THE HANDS OF THESE CRUEL KIDNAPPERS.

AND MUCH MORE DISTURBING FOR ME KNOWING MY SIBLINGS AND PARENTS ARE OUT THERE IN THAT JUNGLE.

PLEASE BBC HELP SPREAD THE WORD OUT WE ARE DYING IN ABIA STATE NIGERIA. ABA IS A HUB FOR KIDNAPPING AND TERRORISM AND THE PRESENT GOVERNOR AND OUR PRESIDENT ARE PLAYING POLITICS WITH OUR LIVES.

EVERY 5 MINS, A MINIMUM OF 4 KIDNAPPING IS COMMITTED AND JONATHAN OUR PRESIDENT KNOWS WE ARE DUE FOR A STATE OF EMERGENCY BUT WONT BECAUSE OF POLITICAL INTEREST TO SECURE THE STATE FOR HIS FORTH COMING ELECTION.
BANKS DON'T OPEN HERE ANYMORE PEOPLE ARE HIJACKED ROBBED AND RAPED .

ON SUNDAY A WOMAN LOST HER 3 KIDS TO ARMED ROBBERY WHEREBY SHE WAS ORDERED TO LIE DOWN AND BE RAPPED BY HER SON. ON THE BOYS REFUSAL THE FIRST SON AND SECOND WHERE SHOT DEAD AND THE LAST DID THE ACT AT THE PLEA OF HIS MOM AND LATER HUNG HIMSELF ON MONDAY MORNING.

PLEASE BRING THE WORLDS ATTENTION TO OUR PLIGHT.

I WEEP. I AM DEEPLY HURT. BUT I REST IT ALL AT THE FOOT OF THE CROSS.

PLEASE JOIN ME IN MY PRAYER FOR THE SAFETY OF THOSE INNOCENT CHILDREN, AND FOR ALL THOSE WHO ARE CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF THIS SAGA.



LOVE ALWAYS,
FRAGILE.

GUILT. REVENGE

PRIDE WON'T LET ME ADMIT THAT I HAVE MISSED YOU.
WTF, WAS I DOING WITH CHOCOLATES AT YOUR DOOR, AND EVEN ACCEPTED TO HAVE DINNER THE FOLLOWING NIGHT???


U SAW IT ALL, U KNEW I MISSED U, EVEN WITHOUT SAYING IT.
YOU TRIED TO EXPLAIN TO ME WHAT'S BEEN GOIN ON, BUT I WOULDN'T LISTEN.

WE HAD DINNER. U EVEN CAME WITHOUT YOUR CRUTCHES.
HOW GUILTY I FELT. I WASN'T THERE TO WITNESS THE PROGRESS.

YOU PIERCED MY HEART WHEN U TOLD ME
*BABE, LET ME TAKE CARE OF YOU*
BUT I COULDNT'T, WOULDN'T JUST GIVE U A LISTENING EAR.

I EVEN FOLLOWED U TO CHURCH, AND THEN I HURT U.
I SAW THE PAIN IN YOUR FACE. THE WORDS CHOCKED IN UR THROAT.
I HAD TO LEAVE WITH ANOTHER.

THAT'S HOW I FELT, WHEN U WERE UNABLE TO EXPLAIN UR ACTION WITH THOSE PIX.
NOW, U TELL ME THIS CUTE STORY, AND WANT ME TO BELIEVE.

NEWAYS, I MISSED YOU, AND THATS FOR SURE, BUT I'M NOT ABOUT TO LINGER WITH U.


WHAT A BORING WEEKEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SHIT PRIDE..... WE COULD HAVE BEEN SOMEWHERE. LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

MY HOPE FOR BETTER DAYS

NOW, MY SILENCE HAS BEEN INTERPRETED AS MOODINESS.
AND MY MOODINESS HAS BEEN SAID TO BE INFECTIOUS.
MY EYES ARE DRY,
I WEEP NO MORE,
THAT WHICH WON'T KILL ME,
WILL ONLY MAKE ME STRONGER.

DEAR GOD,
FORGIVE ME FOR THE TIMES I LIED ON BEHALF OF OTHERS.

DEAR GOD,
TEACH ME HOW TO SPEAK UP, FOR MY SILENCE HAS MADE THEM CALL ME NAMES LIKE "WICKED".

DEAR GOD,
GIVE ME A MAN THAT I CAN FLOW FREELY WITH AND NEVER BE AFRAID OF EVEN IN MARRIAGE.



DEAR GOD,
U READ THIS MSG EVEN BEFORE IT GOT TO ME.
"u are a very wicked person. something that is nothing, u want to start creating issues. its been over 3 months i begged u pls. i want a peaceful home. if u can't, come carry ur stuff cuz u know everything but want to rob me off some peace and u dnt ave my interest so shldnt protect urs. its wicked of u".

GOT THAT FROM MY SISTER ON MY WAY TO CHURCH THIS MORNING ALL BECAUSE SHE'S TRYNA LOOK GOOD INFRONT OF HUBBY.

DEAR GOD,
I NEED AN ACCOMODATION, AND I NEED IT NOW. THEY SAY IT'S EXPENSIVE HERE, BUT I TRUST YOU TO TAKE CARE OF ME NOW.

PLEASE TELL ME, HOW DO U DEAL WITH ONE WHO COMPLAINS ABT EVERYTHING AND NOTHING?

HOW DO U COPE WITH SOMEONE WHO MAKES U UNCOMFORTABLE(ADRENALIN RUSH) IF NOT BY LYING?

DEAR GOD,
PLEASE GIVE ME A MAN THAT I WILL BE AT PEACE WITH.A MAN I WILL FIND NO REASON TO LIE TO. A MAN WHO WILL HAVE THAT CONFIDENCE IN ME, AND TRUST ME TOTALLY. ONE WHO IS SUPPORTIVE OF ME. ONE WHO IS STEADFAST IN THE LORD, FOR THAT IS THE BASIS OF EVERY SUCCESSFUL UNION.

AND FINALLY,.......................
DEAR GOD,
PLS TAKE THIS FLU/MALARIA AWAY FROM ME.

THANK U SUGARKING FOR THAT CALL.

...............................................

WHAT CAN I DO TO ALL THESE CHINESE SPEAKING "THINGS" ON MY BLOG????? REALLY I AM FED UP.

OKAY, MY PEOPLE OF GOD, HOW UNA DEY SINCE I NEVER SHOW FACE FOR THIS SIDE????
WORK NO BE WINCH O, BUT ........................(I NO DEY COMPLAIN)....LOL.

M KOWA IHE OMA CHUKWU N'ÉMERE M(IF I BEGIN TALK WETIN GOD DEY DO FOR ME), MHHHHHH.
DESPITE, MY SHORTCOMINGS, GOD HAS BEEN SURPRISING ME LEFT, RIGHT AND CENTRE.
*SINGING* KELERE M CHIM O, NWANNE M KELERE M CHI M O NA CHI M EMELA.

FOLLOWING MY ANSWER TO BOBO'S QUESTION (*NO*), WE FELL INTO THIS CONVO:

ME: U KNOW, I WANA GO BACK TO SCHOOL, ATTAIN A CERTAIN HEIGHT IN MY CARREER, ATLEAST HAVE SOMETHING TO MY NAME. AND I KNOW YOU WANT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL ALSO, BUT WITH MARRIAGE, COMES KIDS. DO U THINK IT WILL STILL BE PRIORITY WHEN THE KIDS STARTS COMING??

BOBO: AM I THE ONE HAVING THE CHILDREN? I'L STILL GO TO SCHOOL BLA BLA BLA BLA.

AT THIS POINT MY LOVELY PEOPLE, IT JUST OCCURED TO ME THAT, NOT ONLY AM I YET TO BE 24, I HAVEN'T EVEN EXPLORED LIFE'S OPTIONS KA OFO ZIA TYING MYSELF DOWN FOREVER.
WITH THAT, I STOOD TO MY *NO* AND JEJELY LET GO THE RELATIONSHIP AT ONCE CUZ THIS BROS WANTS TO BE MARRIED THIS YEAR, BY FIRE BY FORCE.

SO I'M BACK TO BEING SINGLE. AND SINGLER CUZ A SERIOUS RELATIONSHIP NOW, WILL ONLY BE A DISTRACTION TO THE PICTURE INFRONT OF ME.




HAPPY WEEKEND YÁLL.

ON A RANDOM NOTE

ON MY WAY TO WORK................


2MONTHS AFTER I CUT MY HAIR.......












2weeks ago, i got to the oppice(office)as my hausa brother's would call it,only to find a note on my desk that read, "DEAR FRAGILE, YOU ARE NOW TO TAKE OVER THE CASE STUDIES OF THIS PROJECT".Attached to it was an email from UNECA saying i had but 1 week to deliver. As though my boss was reading me, he said "did u see my note"? In my mind, i had gone like "DUDE ARE U FUCKING HIGH"?, But i just nodded... and i BLANKED OUT.
About this work, i know that a certain PIKIN AND HUSBANDARY DEGREE(PHD)student had been paid to deliver,but never did.
How it happened, i do not know, but i was able to beat the deadline and also the first they recieved from in AFRICA.God's speed.

BOYFRIEND WAHALA:
BOBO, has been complaining about us drifting apart for a while.... bla bla bla, i told him, he was just being petty and all........ but truth is, we've lost touch...and i felt bad.
2DAYS AGO,he asked me....................... and i said "NO". SCARY.....din't see that coming.

DEAR DADDY:
I am so very sorry for giving u a sleepless night. what u do not know is that, i switch on the silent mode on my phone by 9pm that way i don't get distracted. u know i love my sleep!!!!!!
i woke up in the middle of the night to find several missed calls on my phone from my dad and my immediate older sis. i went back to sleep,in mind to return the calls by daybreak only to find a message that read "I HAVE TRIED TO REACH U TO NO AVAIL,ALTERNATIVELY TRIED UR SISTER BUT CAN'T REACH U GUYS.WHAT'S GOING ON. PLS SOMEBODY SHOULD CALL ME OR DO I CONSIDER U GUYS DEAD? PLS CALL ME.
That was a desperate text from my dad,who apparently had tried to reach my oldest sister and i to no avail. he stayed awake all night worrying over me that was sound asleep.lol

HEALTH ISSUES:
Had a scary experience on saturday night. felt like my heart was exploding in my chest. as much as i tried to take a good posture to sleep, the more difficult it became.GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS..........BELIEVE IT. i slept like a baby.

WEEKEND:
What do i do with myself????? thank Goodness,i have the weekend to myself.maybe hang out with BOBO or just sleep... i know i might work on sunday.............

HAVE A LOVELY WEEKEND.
LOVE ALWAYS,
FRAGILE.

MY TESTIMONY. MY CHANGE.

exactly 10 days after my last post, and crying desperately unto God for a change in my life, he answered me.

IF U DO NOT KNOW IT, U CAN PROVOKE GOD TO POUR OUT A BLESSING ON YOU. TRY IT, IT WORKS. JESUS ROCKS.

after my prayers on sunday night, i told myself that come monday morning, i would dress up like every other person going to work and leave the house even if i ended up just visiting someone.
As i dressed up, my lil niece said to me ''U ARE GONNA GET A JOB TODAY''. Of course, i laughed, but said AMEN and left.

Just as i got to my first destination, i got a call for an interview, and off i went and grabbed the job. but somewhere at the back of my mind, i knew that wasn't the job God planned for me, but i thanked him for it.

The boss is one very LOUSY fellow who lacks a simple manner of approach. besides that, he has an EDS (ENGLISH DEFICIENCY SYNDROME), that made me doubt his academic records, that is, IF HE HAS ONE.
Just as i stood outside the office, obviously lost in thots and asking God why he had brought me here, then he answered me.

Along came this man, whom i exchanged glances with. and as i turned to leave, something told me he was gonna come back.
with an open mind when he did return, we chatted and he asked me to give him a call. Of course i din't call him, neither did i have plans to... until i got a call from him. he asked me to see him very early the next morning and that was it.
I WORK AS HIS SPECIAL ASSISTANT, AND BOY............... WORK COULDN'T BE ANY MORE TASKING THAN THIS.I HAVE BEEN ON TRAINING FOR DAYS NOW AND YES, I CAN DO ALL THINGS.
WHEN I LOOK AT ALL THE FILES IN FRONT OF ME, AND ALL THE SPEECHES I HAVE TO WRITE, AND PRESENTATIONS I HAVE TO PREPARE,AS WELL AS RESEARCHES I HAVE TO DO, I FEEL CHALLENGED.


WHAT IS IT THAT U CRAVE IN YOUR LIFE????? THERE IS NOTHING GOD CANNOT DO. U CAN PROVOKE GOD TO POUR OUT A BLESSING ON YOU AND WHEN HE DOES..... DON'T GET CARRIED AWAY, CUZ GOD IS NOT STUPID.

HAVE A WONDERFUL WEEK MY LOVES. GOTTA GO BACK TO WORK.

ONE YEAR AFTER

* THIS COULD BE IT, I THINK I'M IN LOVE...... (SHANIA TWAIN'S "WHEN U KISS ME" BEING THE SONG OF THE DAY).
IT FINALLY CAUGHT UP WITH ME IN THE MOST UN-EXPECTED WAY. I STILL HAVE MY DOUBTS, SO ITS NOT A CASE OF BEING BLINDED BY LOVE.... FOR I CAN SEE FAR BEYOND AND READ INBETWEEN THE LINES. HE, BECAME THE ONE.
I LOVE YOU COLLINS UCHENNA UGWA.

* I'M STILL JOBLESS. YES, EXACTLY ONE YEAR SINCE I LAST WENT OUT MARKETING AND COUNTING MONIES THAT BELONGED TO OTHERS. ONE YEAR SINCE I LAST ATTENDED 7AM MONDAY MORNING MEETINGS AND TURNING IN FRIDAY WEEKLY REPORTS.

* I'M STLL MOST GRATEFUL TO GOD FOR A SECOND CHANCE AT LIFE EVEN THOUGH I'VE NOT BEEN MY BEST (IN TERMS OF SERVING HIM TRULY). YEAH, ONE YEAR SINCE MY HEART SHUT DOWN ON ME.STILL SCARES THE HELL OUT OF ME.

* AND ONE MORE YEAR CLOSER TO MAKING A COMMITMENT OF A LIFETIME.*wink wink*


HAPPY WEEKEND Y'ALL.

MIND THE GAP

Life is a dream we're dreaming.
Of all the Fabs and Coloured pictures streaming.
Life is where you are now. . .
The shocking realization of the Contrast between the colours from the dream.
MIND THE GAP.

Love is Sweet,Rosy, Gentle and Kind.
A perfect picture,everyone once dreamt about.
Love is that Hopeless child on the streets.
An Adult today with no Love to give.
MIND THE GAP.

Marriage is a beautiful Union.
Where Two shall be united as one.
Marriage is that bittered Man,whose found Solace in Someone else, And a Woman whose Burdened with Childlessness.
MIND THE GAP.

Death is that which a Man fears the most.
The loss of all that he's laboured for.
MIND THE GAP. . .
The Difference between the Life you Dream and the Real Life.

P.S CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHERE TO BLOCK THESE CHINESE WRITING PEOPLE FROM MY BLOG BIKO.

ONE NIGHT AS A RUNS BABE

A BAD KITTY I HAVE BEEN. YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHH, BLAME IT ON MY DESTROYED PHONE AND THE DEAD INTERNET SUBSCRIPTION. MSCHEWWWWWWWW.


HAVING MOURNED THE LOSS OF 3600 DOLLARS ALL WEEK{LAST WK. A FASHION FARE I MISSED},AND LISTENING TO THE ESCAPADES OF THE HUSTLERS{BABES} AROUND ME, FRIDAY PRESENTED ITSELF WITH A CRAZY IDEA IN MY HEAD. A CALL FROM ARROGANCE TO GO OUT, AND THIS LONELY SISTER SUPRISED HERSELF BY SAYING YES.
HAVING DRESSED UP IN THOSE SKINNY JEANS AND AN HALTER NECK TOP WITH GLIMMERS AND ENOUGH CLEAVAGE TO .... THANKS TO PMS, MY TWINS SURE LOOKED LOVELIER.
ON, I HOPPED ON MY GUCCI HEELS AND I HIT THE ROAD.KNOWING THE EFFECT MY DRESSING MITE CAUSE, I COULDNT GIVE TWO, AFTER ALL I WAS TO BE A RUNS BABE FOR ONE NIGHT WITH ARROGANCE.
BOBO WAS IN SHOCKED TO SEE ME THAT WAY, AFTER ALL, ALL HE KNOWS ME FOR ARE MY JEANS AND TOPS OR SHIRTS, BUT SEEING THIS BITCH, SURE HAD AN EFFECT ON HIM. AS HE TRIED TO DROP A KISS, I PAUSED HIM

ME: HOLD IT BUDDY.
A: WHAT NOW???
ME: NOT SO FAST BOY. HI, I'M CLAIRE. HEARD SO MUCH ABOUT YOU.
{PLAYING ALONG}

A:OH, YEAH.... I;M THE LADIES MAN.
ME: THATS WHY I;M HERE. TO SEE WOTCHA GOT.
A: NAME UR PRICE....
ME: chineke mee, na like that. lol

WE laughed...

AS WE DROVE OUT INTO THE NIGHT,I TOLD HIM I WANTED TO SEE SOME PROSTITUTES. TRUTH IS, ALL MY LIFE, I HEAR OF THEM BUT HAVE NEVER SEEN THEM. SO HE DROVE US ALONG WUSE ZONE 2, AND GOSH, I WAS SICK TO MY STOMACH.
A STREAM OF YOUNG BEAUTIFUL LADIES LINED UP ON THE STREETS WAITING FOR CUStomers. i shivered and A kept on laughing. As we slowed a bit and he rolled down the glass, one rushed foward and i flinched. she started screaming *ASHAWO*, As we drove off. DAMN, WHATEVER MUST HAVE CAUSED THESE LOVELY LOOKING LADIES INTO THE STREETS????? GOD SAVE US ALL.

MY NIGHT WAS RUINED REALLY AFTER THAT SIGHT. I WAS SICK IN MY STOMACH AND HAD A FEVER ALL NIGHT THROUGH.
ARROGANCE WAS SHOCKED AT THE EFFECT THAT HAD ON ME.
THAT WAS THE END OF MY WEEKEND....

THANK GOD, I FEEL BETTER NOW JO. AND THE WEEK HAS JUST BEGUN RIGHT.
THE 2 DAYS KOREAN CULTURAL DISPLAY HAS JUST MADE MY WEEK ALREADY. THANKS TO ARROGANCE. HE;S BEEN FLAUNTING ME LIKE A TROPHY TO ALL THESE MEN......

SEE Y'ALL MUCH LATER.
P.S I STILL LOVE U ALL IN THIS FAMILY, EVEN THOUGH I'VE BEEN AWAY.

PICTURE POST.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. THIS IS HOW I AM.

RATE ME UGLY.
ENJOY.

FRAGMENTS OF MY DELUDED HALF

OUT OF MY DELUDED MIND, MADE I TO BELIEVE THAT TRULY I AM STRONG.
BUT HERE IS MY REALITY....
A WEAKLING WITH FRAGILE STEPS,
OF FEELING NERVES AND BROKEN LIMBS.
YES, I TRULY AM A STRANGER TO MY REALITY...
A BEING OF MY DELUSIONS,AND A SLAVE TO MY EMOTIONS...
YES, THE TALE BEGINS AT DUSK.
FOR BLIND I WAS, TILL THIS BREAK OF DAWN.
YET MY EYES ARE STILL SLIGHTLY SHUT TO THIS SAGA...
YES, I AM FLAWED...
OF DARK SPOTS AND WALKING SHADOWS.
OF FEELING NERVES AND BROKEN LIMBS.
YES, I AM A WEAKLING WITH MISSING LINKS.
(ok. thats how i felt about me some days ago)

I'VE BEEN AWAY FROM MY BLOGFAM FOR A WHILE, BUT I'M BACK NOW, OR SO I THINK. BLAME IT ON CIRCUMSTANCES BEYOND MY CONTROL.

BEEN READING ON THE ON-GOING TAGS.10 THINGS I LOVE, AND CAN U GUESS WHO LOVES PEEING???
A HANDSOME PRICE AWAITS THE FIRST PERSON WITH THE CORRECT ANSWER.

ARE Y'ALL LOOKING FOWARD TO THE WEEKEND??
FOR ME, THIS IS MY WORST WEEK SO FAR AND I DON'T CARE 'BOUT THE WEEKEND.
Xoxo.

IN MY DREAMS.

IT WAS THE SOUND OF THE PHONE THAT AWAKENED ME WITH THE REMINDER THAT IT WAS ONLY A MATTER OF HOURS BEFORE WE MET.....( NOT LIKE I FORGOT, HOW CAN I SEF????).
I STOOD UP, STRETCHED MY FEET AND SMILED AND COULDN'T WAIT TO SEE HIM.

LAGOS INTERNATIONAL AIRPORT.........

AS I WAITED, OBVIOUSLY EARLIER THAN HIS ARRIVAL(CUZ DISTANCE IS SUCH A BIATCH...), MY MIND WANDERED TO THE THINGS WE COULD POSSIBLY DO OR NOT DO. I MEAN ITS THE FIRST TIME WE SEE AND EXPECTATIONS FLYING HIGH.

FINALLY, HE WAS HERE.....YAYYYYYYYYYY. AT LAST I GET TO SEE HIM. MY HEART MISSING BEATS,BUT I STOOD STILL. PICTURE IN MIND AND EYES DARTING 360DEGREES. I COULDN'T HELP BUT SPOT HIM QUICKLY. THANKS TO GOD FOR THIS HIGH POWERED VISION OF MINE.
HEART SUMMERSAULTING RESTLESSLY AND WORDS FORMING IN MY ALREADY JAMMED HEAD. I WALKED WITH ALL FELINE GRACE TO HIM AND AT THAT MOMENT, "TIME FROZE".

HE LOCKED ME IN HIS ARMS AS WE PERFECTLY FIT AND CARELESSLY, HE KISSED ALL MY FACIAL FEATURES AND FINALLY SETTLED ON MY LIPS. AND WITHOUT A CARE IN THE WORLD, WE REMAINED THAT WAY TILL WE GRADUALLY CAME BACK TO EARTH. IT WAS INDEED GOOD TO HAVE HIM HERE.


*SCRATCH SCRATCH*, ON MY FEET WITH DISCOMFORT.....TRYING SO HARD TO IGNORE AND CONCENTRATE ON FEELING THE BODY OF MY LD LOVE WHEN I FELT SOMETHING ON MY FACE... UP, I JUMPED ONLY TO REALIZE, A ROACH ON MY MAT AND NO LD LOVE BESIDE ME.........
HATE, YEAH. MY HATE FOR ROACHES INCREASED AS I CHASED IT TILL I SMASHED IT TO PIECES. DID I END THERE??????? NO......... I EVEN BURNT THE MURAFUCKER FOR INTERRUPTING MY SWEET DREAMS.

HAVE YOU EVER HAD SUCH A DREAM, WHERE EVERYTHING SEEMS SO REAL????? MSCHEWWWWWWW.

OK, I'VE BEEN HAVING THIS RE-CURRENT DREAM WHERE IT WAS MY WEDDING DAY AND AT ALL TIMES, I WAS AT THE WRONG PLACES.
ONE WAS WHERE EVERYONE WAS READY AND THE BRIDE WAS LOST(ME). OK, NOT LOST, BUT SOMEWHERE IN THE HOUSE, TOTALLY UNAWARE OF THE WEDDING PREP GOIN ON, UNTIL MY BEST FRIEND CAME IN.

BF: U HERE WE ALL DRESSED AND..... WOTCHA DOIN?????
ME: LEAVE ME LO. NO BE UNA WAN MARRY. WHO IS THE GROOM THE WAY??

ARROGANCE. PEOPLE, SEE ME SEE WAHALA. EVEN IN MY DREAMS, HE STILL WAN MARRY.
OK O. MAKE WE DEY WATCH DRAMA.LOL

HOPE WE ALL HAD A FAB EASTER BREAK?????

P.S I LOVE U.

SISTER(S)............................................

I PROMISED TO WRITE ABOUT MY SADNESS, EVEN THOUGH I FEEL BETTER NOW, BUT I MUST KEEP THAT PROMISE.

FFF SAID SHE AND HER SISTER ALWAYS FOUGHT BUT TODAY, THEY GET ALONG. I'M THE OPPOSITE. MY ELDEST SISTER WILL ALWAYS BEAT ME AS A KID FOR REASONS SHE THOT WAS RIGHT. THIS WHOLE I BE UR SENIOR THING IS JUST SO ANNOYING. FRICTION ALWAYS, THUS WE CAN'T GET ALONG.I DOUBT IT.
OF MY THREE SISTER'S, NONE HAS A GOOD DEFINITION OF ME.

MY YOUNGER SISTER, THINKS I'M WEIRD CUZ I DON'T DO THE USUAL STUFF DEY ALL DO.

MY IMMEDIATE ELDER SISTER CALLS ME ANNOYING, CUZ SHE FORGOT MY MUM"S BIRTH DATE AND I FORGOT TO CALL HER TO REMIND HER. REASON BEING THAT, I SO MUCH HAD IT IN MIND TO CALL MUMSIE ON THAT DAY, BUT I WOKE UP WITH A MIND BLOWING TOOTHACHE AND MENSTRUAL CRAMP.BESIDES THE BIRTHDAY THINGY,DATS HOW SHE VIEWS ME.

MY ELDEST SISTER, THINKS I'M TOO DUMB TO FUNCTION AS AN INDIVIDUAL. LIKE SHE'S THE PERFECT ONE AND YOU JUST HAVE TO ADOPT HER WAYS. AND THATS WHERE WE ALWAYS HAVE PROBLEMS. NOT THAT I TALK BACK AT HER BUT CUZ I'M MUTE WHEN SHE STARTS HER NAGGING AND U KNOW WOT THEY SAY ABOUT SILENCE.

SO ALTOGETHER, NOTHING I DO EVER GOES DOWN WELL WITH HER.

SIS: PLS MAKE QUAKER OAT FOR THE KIDS.
OK, I GO TO THE KITCHEN AND DO DAT, I MEAN WHO CAN'T MAKE OATS XCEPT ME?????
SIS: THIS IS TOO HARD FOR THE KIDS. THATS NOT THE WAY I MAKE IT.
ME: SILENCE ALL THE WAY.

I GO OUT WITH ARROGANCE OR ANYONE OF THE OPPOSITE SEX, SHE XPECTS ME TO COME BACK WITH A HAMPER. MHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
I GET A CALL FROM GUY, SHE HAS SOMETHING NOT NICE TO SAY ABT IT. THE ONE THAT PISSED ME OFF ONE DAY WAS WHEN I GOT A CALL FROM THIS GUY I USED TO KNOW WHO ASKED ME TO HELP CHECK ON A HOUSE HE WAS BUILDING AND I WAS JUST TELLING HIM WHAT I SAW AND HE WENT ON TO TELL ME ABT ANODA HOUSE IN LAGOS TOO. AND I ASKED IF I COULD GET A ROOM IN THE HOUSE. AND HE SAID I HAVE TO AGREE TO HIS PROPOSAL AND AS USUAL I JOKED ABOUT IT AND THE NEXT THING I HEARD WAS, "LEAVE THESE GUYS WITH THEIR HIV". WHAT WAS THAT???? IF IT BE A JOKE, IT WASN'T ONE BIT FUNNY.

ON THE DAY OF THAT POST,I HAD WOKEN UP AS USUAL AND GETTING THE KIDS READY FOR SCHOOL IN XCRUTIATING PAIN.( THAT WAS BEFORE THE TOOTH XTRACTION)AND I WAS REALLY NOT IN THE MOOD FOR TALKS. SHE WALKS INTO THE KITCHEN AND BEGAN HER USUAL "WHAT R U DOIN"????? I WAS NOT IN THE MOOD FOR HER..... U'RE NOT FUNCTIONAL TALKS AND I JUST GAVE WAY AND ASKED HER TO JUST DO WATEVER IT WAS THAT HAS TO BE DONE.

SIS: I DON'T BLAME YOU. IT'S ALL BECUZ U R STAYING IN MY HOUSE.

AT THIS POINT, MY HEART BROKE. I WANTED TO CRY, BUT I COULDN'T. WOTS ALL THAT??????? NA WA OOOOOOO. I JUST TOOK A SHOWER, AND LEFT THE HOUSE........ AND GUESS WHO THE DEVIL BROUGHT BY..................................

"ARROGANCE". YEAH HIM............. AND I JUST LET HIM WHISK ME AWAY........ HE WOULD'T UTTER A WORD TO ME AND I JUST SAT IN THE CAR DUMB TILL A CALL FROM MY GOD SISTER WHOM I TALKED TO ABOUT ALL THE ISSUES WITH MY SISTER, AND AS USUAL.................. I CRIEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD MY HEART OUT.
ARROGANCE LET ME CRY WITHOUT A WORD. AND AFTER ALL THE TEARS WERE GONE, AND I HAD SLEPT FOR SOMETIME, HE BEGAN TO SING TO ME ABT NOT GIVING IN TO THE SADNESS THAT CLOUDED MY MIND. HE TOOK ME TO PRESIDENTIAL VILLA, KNOWING I LOVE SUCH AN ENVIRONMENT... THOUGH HE WENT TO SEE OUR ACTING PRESIDENTS WIFE.

OK, I DIDN'T SAY IT......... ARROGANCE IS INTO POLITICS O. I JUST LED MYSELF THRU THE BEAUTIFUL VILLA ON A LONG WALK AND OFF WE WENT HOME AND DOT DOT DOT..............................(DON'T ASK).

ARROGANCE HAS BEEN SO NICE AND ANNOYINGLY SWEET, BUT TODAY WAS BAD. HAVEN'T SEEN HIM ALL WEEK AND TODAY HE CAME TO SEE ME BUT I DIN'T CUZ MY SISTER SPENT MY WHOLE DAY IN THE MARKET. HE EVEN OFFERED TO COME AND PICK US UP WHEN WE WERE DONE BUT MY UNCLE CAME FIRST SO I TOLD HIM NOT TO BORDER. NOW, HE AINT TALKING TO ME AND I'M WORRIED.
WHY????? TRUTH IS HE'LL STILL BE HERE 2MORO SO WTF?????????????

U ALL HAVE A FAB WEEKEND AND I PROMISE NEVER TO BE SAD ANYMORE.......

WHEN SORROW MET PAIN

DARK SORROWS, WHITE PAIN.
ALL BLUE, MY DEPRESSED SOUL...
GREEN MOMENTS, YELLOW FACES.
NEVER NOTICED... CUZ SORROW MET PAIN.

ANGUISH AND TURMOIL.
RAGE AND DESTRUCTION.
SADNESS CLOUDS THE MOMENTS.
CUZ SORROW MET PAIN.

WE BATTLE TO SUPRESS ANGER.
YET, WITH EACH NEW DAY.. MORE DANGER.
NOTHING COMES EASY, EVERYTHING'S SAD.
CUZ SORROW SURE MET PAIN.

WE SULK AND TANTRUMS RISE.
WE FAULT EVEN THE TINIEST THOTS OF WOT WE THOT WAS HOPE...
WE VENT AND OUR HEADS BANG IN VAIN.
ALL BECAUSE SORROW MET PAIN.

THER'S A REASON THIS SADNESS CAME UP AND ITS CALLED *MY SISTER*... SOMETIMES I WONDER, ARE U REALLY MY SISTER???? WILL TELL THE STORY LATER.

XOXO.

TEASE ME OUT

AS I WALKED IN, I WATCHED AS SHE GROWLED AND WRITTED IN PAIN.
WAS THAT FOR REAL OR WAS SHE JUST BEING OVERLY DRAMATIC??? I MEAN, THE ANAESTHETICS WAS SUPPOSED TO NUMB THE PAIN. THEN AGAIN, I THOT OTHERWISE,.... SEEING THE WAY THE DOC SCOWLDED HER AND POKED ON WITHOUT A SOOTHING WORD. YEAH, AT THIS POINT, I WAS DISCOURAGED TO EVEN GET AN APPOINTMENT CARD.

AFTER HE WAS DONE WITH HER, IN THE SAME DRY TONE, NOT MINDING THE STREAM OF WAITING PATIENTS,, DANGLED WORDS AT THE PROFESSIONALLY DUMB REGISTRAR ISSUING THE APPOINTMENT CARDS. IT WAS AT THIS POINT I SAID TO MESELF " THIS DUDE AIN'T TOUCHING ME". I SILENTLY PRAYED FOR A 2ND DOC TO APPEAR BUT NONE DID AND I RESIGNED MYSELF TO FATE AS USUAL BUT WITH AN ATTITUDE. PICKED MY CARD AND WENT INTO THE EXAMINATION ROOM....

DOC: IN HIS DRY TONE... SO TELL ME, WHAT'S UR PROBLEM?

ME: I'LL APPRECIATE IF U TALKED TO ME ON A SOFTER TONE CUZ IF U'RE GONNA ACT THE WAY I'VE WATCHED YOU DO ALL ALONG,.. THEN I GUESS I'LL HAVE TO LEAVE.

DOC: MHHHH.. OK MADAM, HOW CAN I HELP U??

NOW WE'RE TALKING. I EXPLAINED MY ISSUES AND ALL AND HE LISTENED.
AFTER THE CHECK, HE SAID, " ITS JUST GONNA BE A MINOR SURGERY. WON'T TAKE MORE THAN 15MINS".
I HATE THE "S' WORD, SO I EXCUSED MESELF TO THINK IT THRU.
AFTER BATTLING WITH THE IDEA AND WATCHING THE WAY PPLE GROWLED, I CHICKENED OUT.
I WALKED BACK IN AND TOLD HIM THAT I WOULDN'T DO IT THAT I NEEDED AN ALTERNATIVE. HE SMILED AND PATTED MY HEAD AND SAID. "IT'LL JUST BE FINE. U WOULDN'T FEEL THE PAIN".
I MET HIS ASSISTANT WHOM I TOLD TO GET ME MEDS AS I COULDN'T GO THRU WITH THE PROCEDURE. HE SAID HE JUST CAN'T LET ME WALK AWAY LIKE THAT...ATLEAST GET A CLEAN UP FOR N1000. AND AT THIS POINT, I GOT MAD.

ME: U GUYS THINK TIS IS SOME SORTA JOKE HUH. ITS ALL ABT THE MONEY HERE AND U ENJOY THE XTRACTION PROCESS..... U GUYS ARE TOTAL JERKS.
THEN AGAIN, I THOT.... "CLEAN UP"... LETS DO IT.
AS I LEFT THE CLEAN UP TABLE, THE DOC CAME TO ME AND SAID,

DOC: IT'S NOT A PAINFUL PROCEDURE DEAR YOUNG LADY. "I'LL JUST TEASE IT OUT". INFACT,COME AND WATCH ME DO IT. I WATCHED AS HE INJECTED THE LADY BEFORE ME AND 1,2,3.... IT AS ALL OVER. SO I MADE UP MY MIND TO DO IT THAN LOOSE MORE SLEEP.

AS I LAY ON THAT CHAIR, MY MIND WANDERED AWAY FROM MY BODY. I CLUTCHED MY PHONE AND PLUGGED MY EARS WITH THE EAR PHONES AND ALLOWED SOME SAD MUSIC TO FILTER THRU MY EARS. I DIN'T WANNA THINK OF WHAT CAME NEXT AS MY JAW DROPPED AND THE NEEDLES PIERCED..... MHHHHHHHHHHHHH I WAS LEFT FOR SOMETIME TO BE KNOCKED OUT.. IN A COUPLE OF MINUTES,WHILE I WATCHED, SHE DANCED OUT... OH YES... IT WAS A REAL "TEASE OUT". I ASKED FOR HER TO WRAPPED UP AS I CHEWED ON A COTTON SWAB TO STOP BLEEDING. I FELT NOTHING BUT DIN'T KNOW WOT LAY AHEAD.

AS THE ANAESTHETICS WORE OFF,....... HERE CAME THE BRAIN BLOWING CLASSIC PAIN AND DISCOMFORT. THE DRUGS DIN'T SEEM TO HAVE ANY EFFECT AND I ALMOST RAN OUTA MY SKIN. NO FOOD, JUST WATER AND BOY... I WAS HUNGRY. TOOK A STRONGER PAIN KILLER AND WAS ABLE TO CATCH A SNOOZE,THOUGH I WOKE UP A COUPLE OF TIMES TO ADJUST MESELF... BUT THAT PAIN WAS JUST SO REAL.

AND TODAY, I'M FINE. MILD PAIN THOUGH. MHHHHHHHHH, WHEN I TAKE A LOOK AT THAT BABY,I WONDER AT HOW BIG SHE IS. CUZ FROM MY MIRROR, SHE WAS JUST A TINY PAINFUL RASCAL TAHT WASN'T LIKE THE OTHERS.. AND OF COURSE I ACCUSED THE DOC OF TAKING OUT THE WRONG BABY... WHICH WAS LIKE AN INSULT TO HIM....

YEAH,.............. THE DENTIST AND I.

HOW'S EVERYONE HERE???? HAVE A FAB WEEKEND. *KISS KISS*

WETIN I WAN CALL THIS POST????????

THIS POST I HAD SENT VIA MY MOBILE NEVER APPEARED HERE. AFTER ALL MY EFFORT AND FINGER CRAMPS.
WELL THATS IT OH,WERIN I GO DO?????????

HOW WAS UR VALENTINE WEEKEND?????????????? WELL MINE COULDN'T HAVE BEEN COMPLETE WITHOUT A DRAMA.
OK..... THE DAY DAWNED BRIGHT AND CLEAR AND NO PLANS WHATSOEVER. I DECIDED TO UNDO MY HAIR AND RETOUCH AFTER A CALL FROM "ARROGANCE". I TOLD HIM I'L CALL HIM BACK IF AND WHEN I'M THROUGH WITH WHAT I'M DOING.
AT SOME MINS AFTER 5PM, JUST AS I LEFT THE BATHROOM, MY GOD SISTER CAME TO VISIT AND WE SAT DOWN TO GIST WHEN THE PHONE RANG AGAIN.

ARROGANCE: SWEET, U SAID U WERE GONNA CALL???

ME: I'M JUST DRESSING UP, I'LL STILL CALL U WHEN I'M DONE.

MY GOD SISTER AND I DECIDED TO GO FOR AN ICECREAM,AND JUST AS WE SAT DOWN TO EAT, THE PHONE BEEPS AGAIN.

ARROGANCE: HELLO.
BACKGROUND MUSIC PLAYING. THIS TIME HE GOES OFF BLASTING.............
ARROGANCE: BABE I'VE BEEN SITTING OUT HERE WAITING FOR U, AND U R SUMPLACE HAVING FUN.

ME: ????????????????????????????????
B4 NOW, I GOT A CALL FROM A LADY, WITH AN ADDRESS FOR A TABLE FOR TWO. I KNEW IT WAS HIM SO I IGNORED.

ME: LISTEN, I TOLD U I'LD CALL U WEN I'M DONE WITH WHAT I'M DOING NOT HANG OUT WITH U. SO WHATS ALL THAT.
BESIDES, WE'RE DONE AND I MEANT IT WEN I SAID IT.
I TURNED OFF MY PHONE IMMEDIATELY. NA SO MY VALENTINE TAKE PASS O. SEE ME SEE WAHALA.

PLEASE EHN, THE KIND GRAMMER WEY I DEY HEAR THESE DAYS THEY KILL MY EARS O.

AS I WAKA ENTER PHOTO STUDIO TO PRINT SOME OF MY PIX, NA SO THIS BOBO JUST DEY LOOK ME AS I DEY SELECT THE PIX TO BE PRINTED. AND AS I APPROACHED THE DOOR TO EXIT, NA SO THE BOBO COME DEY XCUSE ME.

BOBO: EXCUSE ME, ARE U A ROLE MODEL?????

ME: LOL, TILL I FOUND MY BONES OUTSIDE.

THEN AGAIN, AT A SHOP WHERE I WENT TO PICK UP A HAND BAG, A FEMALE VOICE WITH STRONG IGBO ACCENT STOPPED ME IN MY TRACKS.

GIRL: HI( WHICH SOUNDED LIKE "HANYI" ), UR FANCE LOOKS FAMILIANCE.

ME: LIKE SERIOUSLY???? IN MY MIND, NO BE FOR THIS FCT WEY U KNOW ME. TUFIAKWA.......... I TOOK OFF WITH MY FACE HURTING FROM SUPRESSED LAUGHTER.

BIKO, MY PPLE, NITE SCHOOL GET EDUCATION ENGLISH???
THE THING WEY DEY PAIN ME BE SAY, DIS BABE DEY SHARPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP FOR EYE.
GOD SAVE US ALL.

HOPE U ALL ARE ENJOYING THIS WEEK?????????????????????????

MY NEAR DEATH XPERIENCE

I give this post up for SHORTY. Having read her post A REMINDER TO US ALL', I FELT I SHOULD SHARE THIS. .. IT ALL HAPPENED ON A BEAUTIFUL TUESDAY MORNING IN JULY 2009. I HAD PUNISHED MY BODY TRYN TO COME TO TERMS WITH A DOOMED RELATIONSHIP. I HAD BEEN BITTER AND NUFN SEEMED TO MATA ANYMORE. THE MORE I SAW PPLE SMILING AND NOT FEELING MY PAIN; THE MORE CONVINCED I FELT DAT I WANTED TO DEAL WIT IT ALL ALONE. LIFE SUCKED.. I WAS DRESSIN UP FOR WORK WEN THE RAIN CAME POURING DOWN (TRUST CALABAR WIT THE RAINS). I CALD OUT TO MY HOUSE MATE TO WAIT UP 4 ME. JUST AS I TURNED TO PICK UP MY JACKET, I FELT A SHARP PAIN IN MY CHEST AND WIT A LOUD SCREAM I PASSED OUT. I WOKE UP BY AFTERNUN SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE IN A HOSPITAL BED. STIL GROGGY FROM MEDS,WIT PIPES IN MY ARMS, I COULDNT UNDASTAND WOT WAS GOIN ON AROUND ME. BY THE NEXT DAY,MY ROOM MATE HAD TRIED TO XPLAIN WOT HAPEND TO ME BUT NONE OF IT MADE SENSE TO ME CUZ IN MY MIND I HAD GONE TO WORK AS USUAL. I ASKD TO SEE THE DOC IN CHARGE OF MY CASE AND HE TOLD ME HOW LUCKY I WAS TO BE BROUGHT IN ON TIME. HE XPLAIND TO ME THAT I HAD BEEN IN A SHOCK AS BLOOD SUPPLY WAS CUT FROM A CERTAIN PART OF MY HEART. I WENT THRU SERIES OF TEST AND WAS FINALY PLACED ON MEDS. THE PSYCHOLOGICAL EFFECT CAME WIT INSOMIA AS I WAS AFRAID I'LD DIE JUST BY CLOSING MY EYES. BUT MY BODY BEGGED FOR DAT SLEEP. SLE3PING PILLS BECAME MY ONLY AID. PAIN KILLERS MY DRUG OF CHOICE TO NULL THE PAIN I FELT. WIT AL I BATTLED WIT, I HAD REALIZD THAT NUFN IS WORTH DYING FOR. AND IF MY ROOM MATE WASNT HOME DAT MORNING, NOT ONLY WOULD I AVE BEEN 4GOTEN, I WOULD NEVA HAVE SHARED IT ALL HERE. I HAVE A LIFE WORTH KEEPING AND IT IS MY RESPONSIBILITY. THANK U SHORTY.

BREAK UP PALAVA

BREAK UPS,WETHER,U DO IT,OR HE ENDS IT WITH U, SURE HAS ITS WAHALA.
HAVING ENDED IT WITH ARROGANCE, I COULDN'T GET AS LIL AS A WINK LAST NITE CUZ HE FELT HE HAD THE POWER TO MAKE IT RITE ON THE FONE.

PHONE RINGS.................( RING TONE, FACE DROP...........)
ME:HELLO
A: SO THIS IS WOT U MEANT WEN U ASKED "WHAT ARE WE EVEN DOIN"?
ME:???????????????????????????????
A: UR EXACT WORDS THE LAST TIME WE WERE 2GEDA.
ME: WELL........... SO WHAT DO U WANT FROM ME?
A: BABE, WE'VE BEEN THRU DIS SO MANY TIMES.WOT ELSE DO U WANT ME TO SAY? I DON'T WANNA LIE TO U.
ME: LOL.LIE TO ME? DAT'S BEEN OUR STORY OK. SO LETS JUST LEAVE THIS TALK.
A:SO LEMME ASK U, WHAT D'U WANT FROM ME?
ME: A JOB. U GOT CONTACTS, DO SOMETHING DUDE.
A: SO DATS JUST THE REASON U STILL HANG WITH ME EHN. SO U GET THE JOB AND I'M HISTORY. I TOT U WERE DIFFERENT FROM ALL THE ODAS.................
ME: LET GOD STRIKE THAT UR MOUTH. U R JUST A PIECE OF SHIT U KNOW.U TOO PROUD OF UR BROKE ASS,AND U HERE TALKIN TRASH. JUST FUCK OFF AND ROT FOR ALL I CARE.
A: CALM DOWN, DIN'T MEAN IT THAT WAY.U SO STUBBORN FOR UR PRETTY SELF.
ME: I'M SORRY, THIS CONVERSATION IS SO OVER. COME TO THINK OF IT, WHAT HAS BEEN OUR CASE IF NOT FIGHTING AND U TRYIN TO MAKE IT ALL GOOD AGAIN? THIS TIME, WE'RE DONE AND IT'S FINAL. RING ME NO MORE AND AS U ALREADY SAID AND KNOW, U HAVE BEEN REPLACED.
GET SOME SLEEP IF U CAN.

HE CALLS THIS MORNING TO ASK "WHY DO WE ALWAYS FITE WEN BOTH OF US ARE LOSING??
ME: U ARE THE ONE LOSING CUZ I'M NOT. I'M ACTUALLY GAINING JUST BEING AWAY FROM UR SORRY BEHIND.


SHOW ME THE GUY WHO COMES RUNNING TO U WITH ALL THE SWEET PROMISES OF HAPPILY EVER AFTER COMMITMENTS,AND I'LL TELL U THE SIMPLE TRICK THAT SCARES THEM AWAY.

TRICK: JUST COME ON A LIL STRONGER, AND MENTION THE FACT THAT U WANNA HAVE HIS BABY.............. AND SEE HOW HE LEAVES AN OVAL SHAPED HOLE ON UR DOOR.

THATS MY SECOND BREAK UP STORY, WITH NO REPLACEMENT.

ELIMINATE AND ADD.

I GUESS THIS IS THAT TIME IN MY LIFE THAT MY BESTEST FRIEND TALKED TO ME ABOUT.
OK, I HAVE A BEST FRIEND(FEMALE), WHO IS LIKE THE SECOND ME. AND MY BESTEST FRIEND IS A MALE, MORE LIKE A FATHER FIGURE. BUT BESIDES GOD, HE KNOWS EVERY TINY WEENY BIT DETAILS ABOUT MY LIFE.SUMTIMES WISH I SHARED THAT CLOSENESS WITH MY DAD, BUT HE'S TOO BUSY PAYING ATTENTION TO ................ WATEVA.

I THOT THAT THIS TIME WILL XTEND TO THE NEARBY FUTURE, BUT ITS HERE TODAY, SO I'LL JUST HANDLE IT WELL.
HE SAYS I'M A LOT MORE GROWN SINCE OCTOBER LAST YEAR AND HE'S SO PROUD OF ME.AND I LOVE THE FEEL.

SO I ENDED IT WITH ONE OF THE GUYS. I'LL JUST CALL HIM "ARROGANCE". U SEE, I'VE KNOWN HIM FOR ABOUT A YEAR AND 9MONTHS,AND NEVA A DAY WITHOUT ISSUES. I'VE SEEN HIM ONLY SIX TIMES AND YEAH, HE'S THE ONE THAT SHOWED UP IN MY HOUSE.HANDSOME, TALL, WITH ALL THE QUALITIES OF A PLAYER. I LIKED THE WAY HE MAKES ME LAF BUT IT'S ABT TIME HE LEFT CUZ HE'S MORE PAIN THAN GAIN.

I REPLACED HIM WITH ANOTHER,SO THE NUMBER NEVER LEAVES 5.

GOT A CALL FROM A GUY ASKING IF I WANTED TO BE A MODEL. I'VE ALWAYS TOT IN THAT DIRECTION,AND NOW I GOT AN OFFER, WHAT DO I DO????????????????????? EVEN IF THE PAY AIN'T MUCH, I KNOW I'L LOVE DOIN WHAT I DO.

HAVE A LOVELY WEEKEND Y'ALL.

WHO'S NEXT????????????????

THINGS ARE GOING FAST AND SLOW AND I KNOW NOT WHAT TO THINK. IT'S BEEN A GOOD START THIS YEAR AND I KNOW I'LL FINISH FIRST.
I JUST DON'T KNOW, BUT I'M GRATEFUL I WAS BORN INTO MY FAMILY ALBEIT CRAZY MOST TIMES. I LOVE MY DAD, BUT I KNOW IT'S BETTER WITH MY MUM.

ONE OF US CHANGED HER STATUS RECENTLY(NOT MY SIS, BUT MY FRIEND). WE WERE THREE, NOW ONE IS GONE. WE HAD OUR TIME TOGETHER FROM CHILDHOOD TO TEENAGE YEARS TO NOW. THOUGH SEPARATED BY SCHOOLS, WE STILL FOUND WEEKENDS TOGETHER TO CATCH UP ON LOST TIMES. TRULY, ONE OF US IS GONE.
I DECIDED TO THROW HER A LIL PARTY FOR HER WEDDING.DAD LET ME USE THE BAR,AND ALSO LET ME HAVE BOOZE FOR THE PARTY. MUM TOOK CARE OF THE AFRICAN SALAD AND FOOD. I PLANNED IT SMALL, TILL THE GROOM CAME WITH HIS FRIENDS AND HER BROTHER WITH HIS TOO. DAD HAD FROWNED A BIT CUZ WE STAYED UP LATER THAN XPECTED DESPITE THE INSECURITIES, BUT WE SURE HAD A BLAST, AND EVERY1 THANKED ME FOR THE DAY. AFTERALL, WHAT ARE FRIENDS FOR.THE QUESTION ON EVERYONE'S LIPS IS " WHO IS NEXT"????????????????????

SO, I SAID YES TO 5 GUYS. I'M A GIRLFRIEND TO 5 GUYS, ALL TALKING THE EVER AFTER WAY EVEN WEN I KNOW I'M NOT READY. WHO CARES. MIND U, B4 U GO CALling ME NAMES, I TOLD THEM ABT EACH OTHER, SO IF THEY CHOOSE TO STAY, THEIR BUSINESS NOT MINE. THE FUNNY THING ABOUT IT IS,THEY ALL THINK I'M MAKING THEIR OPPONENTS UP. I GET NOT TO SEE ANYONE OF THEM BUT THE PHONE KEEPS RINGING LIKE HELL AND I PICK JUST WEN I FEEL LIKE IT. I'M NOT IN LIKE WITH MARRIAGE IDEAS FOR NOW.

ONE OF THE GUYS CAME TO SEE ME AT HOME AND THAT CAUSED SOME EYEBROWS TO RAISE.NEIGHBOURS,AUNTS, FRIENDS ETC. MY AUNT WON'T LET ME BE. I TOLD THEM, HE'S EVEN THE WORST OF THE LOT AND MY DAD UNDERSTANDS WHY.

*CRAZY* MY COUSIN IS HAVING MEN CRISIS. SHE WANTS TO TIE THE KNOTS, BUT ALL GUYS SEEM TO BE ON THEIR HEELS AROUND HER AND SHE'S MAD ABT IT. SHE'S HATING ME CUZ I'VE GOT 5 COMING AND I'M NOT EVEN SERIOUS WIT ANY.

MY GRANDMUM THINKS I'M RIGHT ABOUT MY DECISIONS, BESIDES OF WHAT USE WOULD U BE TO A MAN AS A FULL TIME HOUSE WIFE?

I TOOK TIME TO COUNT ALL THE GUYS, I'VE AS LITTLE AS KISSED IN MY WHOLE LIFE AND REALIZED THAT IT COULD HAVE BEEN ONE, FOR EACH YEAR SINCE I WAS BORN. THE NUMBER IS ALARMING.

ONE OF THE GUYS ASKED, "HOW MANY BOYFRIENDS HAVE YOU HAD"
ANS: OFFICIALLY, THREE. BUT I'VE KISSED OVER 15.

MET A YOUNG LADY RECENTLY CRYING OVER A MAN WHO SAID HE LOVED HER, AND STILL LEFT HER. AND I ASKED.

ME:DOES I LOVE YOU MEAN I WILL MARRY YOU??